~ Fill Me With Love ~

Fill me up when I am empty,
Like no one else has done;
Pour warmth into my spirit,
Like rays from summer sun.

Like rain upon the desert,
On a dry and barren land;
You cause my soul to blossom,
With touch from gentle hands.

And like the breeze of springtime,
Gently 'cross my body blows;
Igniting there a flame of fire,
That sets my heart aglow.

You've placed a seed within me,
That has grown into a vine;
Of sheer unbridled passion,
Tendrils curled and intertwined.

Fill me up when I am empty,
Like an overflowing cup;
No one else has ever filled me so,
Yet my Love, you fill me up.

A Friend Unseen ...........

It's strange to have a friend

That you have never hugged

Lightly touched their arm

Or looked into their eyes

But ...

They have touched your soul

Felt their heart 

Been embraced by

The warmth of their being

A friend unseen

Is not a friend untouched

The eyes of the soul will gaze

The heart will embrace

The image will stand tall

But ..

only in dream

~ In The Silence ~

Only to the silence will she say
How she longs to feel him again
When the shades go down and the lights go out
And these emotions she can no longer defend

Only to the shadows may she confess
How much it kills her to struggle on
And how her soul aches when she wakes
Alone and reminded that he’s still gone

Only in the darkness will she admit
How her love for him eats her alive
She haunts herself with happy memories
And fantasies of being with him

Only in her solitude will she crumble
And allow herself to fall apart

Only in the silence, to the shadows
When she is all alone
She will cry out, awaiting the moment

to be with him once more

~ Unspoken Emotions ~

Love is supposed to be an action not just an emotion. Do I love you because I feel I do ? or because you took the time to show it? Love is supposed to come from the windows of your soul and not just from the chambers in your heart. So, is it my soul that feels pain or my heart that cries when you're gone? Love is supposed to be the best form of communicating one's inner spirituality to another. But if we both are upset at one another, is it our spirits or our words that keep us a part? Love should be me writing poetry and singing silly songs of happiness, blossom trees and turtle doves. But if you don't enjoy or appreciate any of these things, has my love been wasted or misunderstood? Love should be you being able to look into my eyes while gently caressing my soul and wanting to create a home with me. What if you're too busy to look into my eyes, does that mean that we become homeless? Love is, love could be, love should be infinity times infinity and a whole lot more. But if you're the only one feeling it, and I'm the only one showing it, were we ever truly in love?

~ Moment In Time ~

We talked,
We walked,
for a Moment in Time.

You passed through my life and left your mark.
You may never pass my way again,
Or you may stay for a lifetime.

No matter what,
I want to say thank you for the impression you made
that will stay with me for eternity.

I enjoyed the walk,
I enjoyed the talk.
I am blessed for that moment in time.

The moment I know you
I knew you would affect my life,
though your role I did not know.
There is so much I want to know.

I asked myself, "Why him?
When so many people pass through my life each day,
why him? "

What attracts me to you?
What makes me want to know more?
I want to know.

Even if my questions are never answered,
There is one thing I want you to know.
I have been blessed by the effect you had on me in that
Moment in Time.

~ Alone ~

People need people and friends need friends

And we all need love for a full life depends

Not on vast riches or great acclaim

Not on success or on worldly fame

But just in knowing that someone cares

And holds us close in their thoughts and prayers

For only the knowledge that we're understood

Makes everyday living feel wonderfully good

And we rob ourselves of life's greatest need

When we "lock up our hearts" and fail to heed

The outstretched hand reaching to find

A kindred spirit whose heart and mind

Are lonely and longing to somehow share

Our joys and sorrows and to make us aware

That life's completeness and richness depends

On the things we share
with our loved ones

and friends.

~ Crying ~

Have you ever cried without shedding a tear?

Have you felt the pain of another when they are near?

Have you cried when a new born baby arrives

And cried when you see that child as it thrives

Have you ever loved someone so much you cry?

Knowing that you will fail them no matter how you try

To keep the pain of harm, of loss, of love, of life

Turning it into joy and goodness, instead of strife

Have you felt the tears fall like raindrops as you smile?

Realizing that this is peace, glad you walked that mile...

Have you loved so hard, that it hurts deep inside

When what you need is a touch,

or love that doesn't hide

It seems that there are days when the tears fall

No matter what is good, the sadness removes it all

Crying they say is good for so many things....is that true?

Good for the soul,

good to cleanse the hurt,

heal the blues

Lately life brings many tears, as the crying doesn't cease

The wars,

the famine,

the abuses, never ending diseases

Loss of jobs,

being homeless,

addictions and despair

Rarely do we see any happiness, only sadness in the air

I've felt the joys of motherhood, and captured all that love

Praying they would be safe and content as the white dove

Instead sometimes we fail, although it was not the intent

We do our best, still fail the test, tears can't fix the dents

Crying, crying, crying...seems that is what we do.....

The tears do not fix everything, they simply fail as glue

Although we try, the years go by,

We see through different eyes, no matter how I tried

Have you ever felt the tears as they drop like heavy rain

Thinking that soon, they will dry and there will be no pain

Have you ever cried so much that there are none left

Then realized that it doesn't really matter; it is all set

I have cried the tears of joy,

the tears of gladness,

the tears of sorrow,

the tears of forgiveness,

the tears of laughter,

the tears of anger,

the tears of grieving

I have cried a river, and filled every crack within my soul

yet, for some reason, I am certain, that there will be more

because no matter what life brings us,

tears come to shore

Of all the tears that I have shed, the one that means

the most to me..

is when I held my hands and asked

to be forgiven!

~ I'm Just A Woman ~

A woman needs to be assured
In each and every way,
She needs the warmth of loving words
That only you can say.


She needs a lot of understanding …
When she's feeling somewhat down.
She needs for you to make her smile,
And take away her frown.


A woman's heart is fragile
Her feelings are that way too,
Times she feels so sad inside,
Not knowing what to do.


It's hard to be a woman,
Misunderstood in many ways,
Sometimes all it takes to help,
Is a loving word, to make her day.


She needs to know that she's the one,
That fills your heart with desire,
She needs to be told often,
That she sets your soul on fire.


She needs that soft and tender touch
As if she were a fragile rose,
And feel that she's so special.
From all others, you could have chose.


She needs to hear, "I Love you",
Whether close or miles apart,
She needs to know… she's the one,
That's the center of your heart.


So, please listen when I need to talk,
Please kiss away my tears,
Let me share my worries with you,
And help me face my fears.


You see, I'm just a woman.

~ No Regrets ~

No Regrets ........



People come and people go
they cross our life
and touch our soul


having them gave such a wonderful feeling
eventhough ...
there were ups and downs
but
no regrets ....


I want to live life to the fullest,
and not have any regrets,
for the things I say,
for the things I do,
as I pass by my way on through.


I want to be the best I can be,
every waking moment,

I want to love and be loved,
and live life joyously,
quietly and peacefully

and when I am no more,
and I’ve gone
there will be no need for excuses, yet,
definitely no regrets.

everything happens for a reasons .....

~ The Soul and the Heart ~

The Soul and the Heart ..............



Always together
And never apart
One is the soul
The other-the heart
The heart is the key
Into the soul
While the soul fills the heart
Making it whole
One shows life
And the other-love
One is a butterfly
And one is a dove


One is all joyful and happy and free
While the other is unsure
Of where it wants to be
You cannot have one without the other
They give the other one life
And love each other
They both give something
And are useless alone
They both are strong
Yet accident prone
With soul-you need love
With love-you need soul


Each makes the other
More and more whole
We all have each
And each give to all
But depending on how we use it
You either rise or you fall
So just always remember
That they are always together
And never apart
One is the soul
The other-the heart

~ The bond of love is not desire, but need ~

The bond of love is not desire, but need..........




The bond of love is not desire, but need.
Desire fades; need with wisdom grows:
The need to be needed, and the need to need.

But why the need to need when one is freed
By needing less of that which comes and goes?
The bond of love is not desire, but need.

And why need to be needed? Why should one cede
What one might well enjoy for what one owes?
The need to be needed, and the need to need

Are longings of the sower for the seed,
And the seed for the sower, who whistles as he sows.
The bond of love is not desire, but need.

Love is longing, by dint of death decreed,
The beauty and the terror life bestows,
The need to be needed, and the need to need

Embedded in one's being, as indeed,
Being needs Creation, which it once chose.
The bond of love is not desire, but need:
The need to be needed, and the need to need.

~ There is no life, without its share of pain ~

There is no life, without its share of pain.................




There is no life without its share of pain,
Nor can you love and not feel agony,
A need whose hunger drives you near insane,
A state in which you must, but cannot be.

There is no cure, nor anything to say,
Nor any aspirin for unhappiness.
Other friends and loves will come your way
And then pass on through death or faithlessness.

And so if you would ever dwell in joy,
You must embrace the agony of sorrow.
Time will all you love and need destroy,
But you will heal to love again tomorrow

~ Time Will Only Tell ~

Time Will Only Tell.........




All my life,
I've been searching


All my life
I've been waiting

And all this of this time,
I've waited so long,
but I guess that's just part,
of lifes beautiful song.

Cause if there's a beginning,
there's got to be an end,

and if there's a love,
there's got to be a heart to mend.

Life has got its problems,
and its solutions too,
there's many problems in life,
solutions-very few.

But not everything is easy,
and sometimes you have to wait,


And in my life,
another lesson I've learned well,
you must wait and see what happens,

cause time will only tell.

~ Ya Ilahy ~

Ya Ilahy...........


tahun berganti tahun
Sekian begitu..
Umurku berkurang...
Namun amalku masih belum bertambah…
Solatku masih belum khusyuk pada-Mu..
Maksiatku masih begitu..
Hatiku masih leka menghitung nikmat dunia..

Ya Ilahy..

Mengapakah aku masih belum mahu…
Mensyukuri nikmat-Mu?
Mensyukuri nikmat hidup untuk benar-benar bertaubat pada-Mu..
Sebelum nafasku berakhir..
Nafas yang belum tentu beakhir dengan Husnul Khatimah
atau Su’ul Khatimah…


Aku takut Ya Allah…
Takut pada-Mu..
Takut pada murka-Mu…
Takut pada azab-Mu..

Ya Ilahy yang amat aku Cintai…

Aku tidak mahu taubatku menjadi taubat orang-orang yang lalai..
Aku ingin inilah taubatku yang bermakna untuk seluruh hidupku..
Sebelum magrib-Mu tiba..
Sebelum umurku berkurang..
Sebelum nyawaku berakhir...
Sebelum nafasku terhenti..
Sebelum hatiku mengeras…
Aku tak sanggup Ya Allah..
Kehilangan Cinta-Mu bisa buat aku merana...

Ya Ilahy.....

Izinkanlah aku merasa sedikit nikmat menyintai-Mu..
Sepertimana orang-orang soleh menyintai-Mu…
Rukuk dan sujud merasa adanya Engkau..
Aku damba cinta-Mu yang Maha Agung..

~ Memories Of Yesterday ~

Memories of Yesterday...........
(goodbye 2009...........welcome 2010)




so close in my heart
yet so far away
I think about you


I'm sitting here
all alone
wishing I could talk to you
staring at the phone


thinking what had happened
between us
things that went wrong
now I'm stuck somewhere
I feel I don't belong

I love you so much
my dearest friend
wishing to be together
until the very end

Memories of yesterday
linger in my mind
of all the things
I left behind

I wish I could turn back time
to when I was free
so full of life
just you and me

I would freeze that moment
and hold it tight
everything would be perfect
and feel so right

As I turn back the pages of memories
and recall each single thought,
I realize the happiness and pleasure
that knowing you has brought.

There are memories of the times
we’ve shared both bright and gloomy days
there are memories of your kindness
and your friendly, thoughtful ways.

There are memories of your laughter,
your gay and cheery smile
that added a bright note to each of us
and made life more worthwhile.

There are memories of the things
we planned each friendly little chat,
when we would get together
and just talk of this and that.

And when I recall these memories
as I move along life’s way
they grow more precious and blessed
with every passing day.

Days turn into months
months turn into years
I'm forever missing you
wishing you were here

You'll always be missed
but Your forever in my heart
I will never forget

memories of yesterday

So until the day
we can meet again

~ Be Free ~

Be Free.......




Let the wind blow free….
Like the bird flies and glides up in the sky….

Let the waves rolls free….
Like the fish swims under the sea….

Let your self feel free…
Let your dreams aim high….

Let love flow freely
from every moment in our life........

~ Do I Deserve ~

Do I Deserve.........



Do I deserve the hurt I’ve been given;
Or the pain that’s been inflicted?

Do I deserve the loss of a true love
And for my heart to be so restricted?

Do I deserve the dishonest acts of others;
all the disrespect I am shown?

Do I deserve people saying my name in hate;
Or to be so alone and unknown?

Do I deserve the reputation I have;
To always be used as a toy?

Do I deserve being treated as bad as I am;
So easy for my life, to destroy?

If so, strike me down,
If so, show me,
If so, take my sight,
Or please, let me see.

Keep believing in yourself ~

Keep believing in yourself ~

There may be days when you get up in the morning
and things aren't the way you had hoped they would be.
That's when you have to tell yourself that things will get better.


There are times when people disappoint you and let you down,
but those are the times when you must
remind yourself to trust your own judgments and opinions,
to keep your life focused on believing in yourself
and all that you are capable of.


There will be challenges to face
and changes to make in your life,
and it is up to you to accept them.


Constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction for you.
It may not be easy at times,
but in those times of struggle
you will find a stronger sense of who you are,
So when the days come that are filled with frustration and unexpected responsibilities,
remember
to believe in yourself and all you want your life to be,
because
the challenges and changes
will only help you
to find the goals
that you know are
meant to come true for you.

Better To Light Candles

~ Better To Light Candles ~




It is better to light candles
than to curse the darkness.

It is better to plant seeds
than to accuse the earth.

The world needs all of our power
and love and energy,
and each of us has something that we can give.

The trick is to find it and use it,
to find it and give it away.
So there will always be more.

We can be lights for each other,
and through each other's illumination
we will see the way.

Each of us is a seed,
a silent promise,
and it is always spring.

" A Window To The Heart................."

~ A Window To The Heart ~




If we had a window, that was an opening to our heart.
When others stop to take a look where would our window start.

What would people see there, as they looked upon your soul.
When they gazed down on the window, what would their eyes behold.

Pretend it was a camera, that shot photos of your day.
It recorded everything you did at work or even play.
Would you care for other people to see what lies inside.
Or would you want it hidden what do you have to hide.

Would you be a loving person that cared for others so.
What would your window have to say
what would your window show.

If we knew we had a window and everyone could see.
There was no secret place to hide what lives inside of you see.

Would it make a difference in what you set out to do.
Would it change the way you live, if others could see in you.?