~ Memories Of Yesterday ~

Memories of Yesterday...........
(goodbye 2009...........welcome 2010)




so close in my heart
yet so far away
I think about you


I'm sitting here
all alone
wishing I could talk to you
staring at the phone


thinking what had happened
between us
things that went wrong
now I'm stuck somewhere
I feel I don't belong

I love you so much
my dearest friend
wishing to be together
until the very end

Memories of yesterday
linger in my mind
of all the things
I left behind

I wish I could turn back time
to when I was free
so full of life
just you and me

I would freeze that moment
and hold it tight
everything would be perfect
and feel so right

As I turn back the pages of memories
and recall each single thought,
I realize the happiness and pleasure
that knowing you has brought.

There are memories of the times
we’ve shared both bright and gloomy days
there are memories of your kindness
and your friendly, thoughtful ways.

There are memories of your laughter,
your gay and cheery smile
that added a bright note to each of us
and made life more worthwhile.

There are memories of the things
we planned each friendly little chat,
when we would get together
and just talk of this and that.

And when I recall these memories
as I move along life’s way
they grow more precious and blessed
with every passing day.

Days turn into months
months turn into years
I'm forever missing you
wishing you were here

You'll always be missed
but Your forever in my heart
I will never forget

memories of yesterday

So until the day
we can meet again

~ Be Free ~

Be Free.......




Let the wind blow free….
Like the bird flies and glides up in the sky….

Let the waves rolls free….
Like the fish swims under the sea….

Let your self feel free…
Let your dreams aim high….

Let love flow freely
from every moment in our life........

~ Do I Deserve ~

Do I Deserve.........



Do I deserve the hurt I’ve been given;
Or the pain that’s been inflicted?

Do I deserve the loss of a true love
And for my heart to be so restricted?

Do I deserve the dishonest acts of others;
all the disrespect I am shown?

Do I deserve people saying my name in hate;
Or to be so alone and unknown?

Do I deserve the reputation I have;
To always be used as a toy?

Do I deserve being treated as bad as I am;
So easy for my life, to destroy?

If so, strike me down,
If so, show me,
If so, take my sight,
Or please, let me see.

~ Pain ~

Pain ...............



It has many forms, some hurt worse than others
Some cause you to bleed, while others make you cry
Some make you want to die, or be dead, while
others just make you want to stay in bed


Pain, its like a bee stinging you in the face
Pain, its like someone sprayin you with mace
Pain, its like having your best friend die
Pain, its like biting into a hot piece of pie
Pain, its like a knife tearing your skin
Pain, its like not having any friends
Pain, its like having your heart ripped in two
Pain, its like not knowing what to do
Pain, is a common thing for me
Pain, it fills my life with sorrow and misery
Pain, it makes me want to cry everyday
Pain, it makes me feel the worst way
Pain, it drives my life and the things I do
Pain..........please leave me alone !

~ Don’t be afraid of who you are ~

Don’t be afraid of who you are ...........

Do anything you want to do
go anywhere you want to go.
All you’ve got is who you are

Don’t be afraid of you.
Don’t be afraid to open life’s doors
have courage to build new ones.
Create the opportunities you desire

Don’t be afraid of you.
Don’t be afraid to be weak
Don’t be afraid to fail
Learn from each experience

Don’t be afraid of you.
Don’t be afraid to dream your dreams
wish what you desire.

Close your eyes and dream away
Don’t be afraid of you.
Don’t be afraid to find your path
broaden your horizons.

when all you see is black and white
take charge to change the colours.
Don’t be afraid of you.

~ I Am Nothing ~

I am Nothing........



I am here sitting,
wondering and doing nothing….
I am thinking
that something might happen
but I am nothing….
I dreamed and dreaming
but I am nothing….

I am thinking….dreaming that ,
Someday
I might be someone and something….
But i started in nothing….

I was in love and beloved but ended in nothing….
I give my care….
I give my love….
I give my respect….

But I lost him….
Cause I'm nothing to him….


All I want is to be happy….
To be cared….
To be loved….
To be respected….

I may have nothing now….
But someday I might have everything….

~ A Lesson in Love ~

A Lesson in Love..........



Love is something I have never experienced.
Something I have never known.
Do I want to know?
Do I want to experience?


Experience something so different, so crazy,
So overwhelming.


You don't know my torture, or my pain.
How can I explain to you the feelings that
Come over me while your in my arms?
Or when I stare into your hypnotic eyes.


Are these feelings love?
Feelings I can't fight.


Have you shown me pleasure or pain?
Why do I tremble when you say my name?


I will let you win the game you play with my heart.
For a lesson,


A lesson in love.

~ We Don’t Know Why ~

We Don’t Know Why.........




The twinkling of stars on a balmy night,
The gabble of geese as they take flight,
A passionate look in your lover’s eye,
The graceful ballet of a butterfly.



Living on the edge, in a committed way,
Facing all challenges day by day,
Your life on the line—to do, not just try,
Life is exciting—a natural high.



Failure and boredom appear in your life;
Unhappiness cuts you, just like a knife.
“Where are all the good times,” you cry;
Is life just hard, and then you die?”


The freshening feel of an ocean breeze,
The colors of change in the leaves on the trees,
The feeling of peace as the days go by,
Life's a dazzling puzzle—and we don’t know why.

" Love Is Patient with a Life.............."

~ Love Is Patient with a Life ~




Love is patient with a life
That brings its share of pain.
We know sometime there is an end
To the most stubborn rain.

We know the sun comes out again
On a world that's fresh and new,
And all the gifts we freely give
Somewhere, sometime accrue.

We know sometimes we have to wait
For life to come around,
And sometimes that it won't, but still
There's some good to be found.

And even when things happen that
Your soul can hardly bear,
Know that Allah is next to you;
His love is always there.

" Love Comes Through the Eyes That See ............"

~ Love Comes Through the Eyes That See ~



Love comes through the eyes that see
And through the ears that hear,
For people are quite beautiful,
And words make feelings clear.

Love comes through the hands that touch
With unabashed affection,
For only skin-to-skin can love
Maintain its true direction.

Love comes through the tastes and smells
Of fresh and well-cooked food,
For in the gift of nourishment
Is much else that is good.

But though love comes through senses five,
Love comes from the heart,
For there resides the greater love
Of which ours is a part.

Keep believing in yourself ~

Keep believing in yourself ~

There may be days when you get up in the morning
and things aren't the way you had hoped they would be.
That's when you have to tell yourself that things will get better.


There are times when people disappoint you and let you down,
but those are the times when you must
remind yourself to trust your own judgments and opinions,
to keep your life focused on believing in yourself
and all that you are capable of.


There will be challenges to face
and changes to make in your life,
and it is up to you to accept them.


Constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction for you.
It may not be easy at times,
but in those times of struggle
you will find a stronger sense of who you are,
So when the days come that are filled with frustration and unexpected responsibilities,
remember
to believe in yourself and all you want your life to be,
because
the challenges and changes
will only help you
to find the goals
that you know are
meant to come true for you.

" Endless love ...................."

~ .......Endless love




Love is joy
in the beauty of another
Love is life
the sparkle of our world

Universal love
oh, what a boundless joy
Boundless love
the light of life


~ oOo ~


Wealth is not in what we get,
but in what we create,
life is rich by this alone,
by the wealth of the soul,
the beauty of its love,
the omniscience of its mind,
as we enrich one another.

Sex doesn't define humanity,
we, humanity, define it.
There is no light in romance,
but what we bring to it.
Love is joy,
in the beauty of another,
it reflects the beauty of the soul
of those who love.

This is our human world,
richer in brilliance than the stars,
and more infinite..

" Miscommunication....................."

~ Miscommunication ~

Miscommunication can change a person’s path.
It can alter your opinion, even fill you with wrath.

Always try to eliminate it before you place the blame,
when heated words are said nothing remains the same.

It leads to misunderstanding and breach of trust.
to express ourselves more accurately is definitely a must.

To lose through Miscommunication is a terrible loss,
we may lose something dear to us

We could be the bearer and not even know,
it’s important to lead by example for you reap what you sow.

Have courage to confront, to clear the air.
To leave things unsaid leaves a terrible tear.

" Sometimes in Life............"

~ Sometimes In Life ~



Sometimes........

When we think too much about ourself
We got exhausted and depressed
When we think too much about others
We got tired and stressed
When we expect too much in life
We think no one cares
When we set the target too high
We will not dare
Love for us is lost
We give up passion to live with all cost...

So...

Feel good about what you have
Enjoy the good company around you
Be grateful of what God gave
Give the best all way through…

And...

Smell the roses while passing by
Achieve the goal and fly high
Search the deepest truth of your heart
Treasure the precious company while being apart
Take care of the heart and soul
True happiness is the ultimate goal
Façade actions are to be ignored
Bring alive the soul that are bored
Give smile to the frowning faces
Heal up the bruises
Hope for the best
Cope with the rest
May be we blessed...

" Love From The Heart................."

~ Love from the heart ~



I fly like a bird
to be where you are,
to spend just an evening
in your place afar.
Beautiful music

never has love been
quite so divine!

But soon I must leave
so kiss me farewell,
the last dance is over
as love stories tell.

I'll never forget
the magic of you,
as I'm flying back home
Oh........are you coming too?

Beautiful romance
made my heart and soul sing.

Better To Light Candles

~ Better To Light Candles ~




It is better to light candles
than to curse the darkness.

It is better to plant seeds
than to accuse the earth.

The world needs all of our power
and love and energy,
and each of us has something that we can give.

The trick is to find it and use it,
to find it and give it away.
So there will always be more.

We can be lights for each other,
and through each other's illumination
we will see the way.

Each of us is a seed,
a silent promise,
and it is always spring.

" Ode To Love.............."

Ode to Love

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I love

---

Love is joy
in the beauty if another
oh, find this joy
share this love.

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I love

---

Love is the warmth of the sun
that gives life to the universe
a summer's day
a golden glow
your smile.

---

I love

---

Love is rich,
we enrich one another
a precious heart touched by another's life
we touch the boundless
to be enriched together.

---

I love

---

Love is a garden
of beauty, fragrance, colour and life
we dance in it
we tend it
love is the purpose for the rose

---

I love

---

Love is a mirror
in it we see our humanity
living jewels
sparks in a world of love
what would the world be
without you?

---

I love you
can I do more

---

In love we share infinity
our home, our heaven
all the roses in the world
all the sunshine of the universe
as we are one with them.

---

I love

---

" A Window To The Heart................."

~ A Window To The Heart ~




If we had a window, that was an opening to our heart.
When others stop to take a look where would our window start.

What would people see there, as they looked upon your soul.
When they gazed down on the window, what would their eyes behold.

Pretend it was a camera, that shot photos of your day.
It recorded everything you did at work or even play.
Would you care for other people to see what lies inside.
Or would you want it hidden what do you have to hide.

Would you be a loving person that cared for others so.
What would your window have to say
what would your window show.

If we knew we had a window and everyone could see.
There was no secret place to hide what lives inside of you see.

Would it make a difference in what you set out to do.
Would it change the way you live, if others could see in you.?

" I've dreamed many dreams .................."

~ I've dreamed many dreams ~



I've dreamed many dreams that never came true.
I've seen them vanish at dawn.
But I've realized enough of my dreams thank the Lord,
To make me want to dream on.


I've prayed many prayers when no answer came,
Though I've waited patient and long,
But answers have come to enough of my prayers
To make me keep praying on.


I've trusted many a friend that failed,
And left me to weep alone,
But I've found enough of my friends that are really true,
That will make me keep trusting on.


I've sown many seeds that have fallen by the way,
For the birds to feed upon,
But I've held enough golden sheaves in my hand,
To make me keep sowing on.


I've drunk from the cup of disappointment and pain
I've gone many days without song,
But I've sipped enough nectar from the Roses of Life
To make me keep living on!

" The Flow of Life..................."

~ The Flow of Life ~

If the sky above seems cloudy,
And you are left out in the rain,
If you are searching for a rainbow,
But the colors bring you pain,
If your world is not revolving,
And there is no end in sight,
If you are looking for the sunshine,
But all you see is night,
If all around are smiling,
But all you can do is frown,
If you are tired of all this living,
When life just brings you down,

Then look beyond your teardrops,
At the wonders of this land,
The beauty of a flower,
Like velvet in your hand.
Feel the air around you,
The smell of new mown hay,
Laughing children in the park,
The innocence there at play,

Imagine floating with a butterfly,
As she flutters between the trees,
Or the whispers of the ocean,
On warm hot summer's breeze,
Think of the taste of candy floss,
As it melts upon your tongue,
Or the melody of morning birds,
As they greet each day with song,
Remember words of beauty,
Told in your mother's embrace,
Feel the gentleness of her touch,
As she softly kissed your face,

Seek the good within you,
Cast the clouds from your sky,
Don't look toward the pavement,
But hold your head up high,
Think not what life owes you,
But of all you have to give,
Forget about tomorrow,
Then you can start to live.

So Bless this age your are living in,
With the gifts you can bestow,
Don't disregard the stream of life,
Go gently with the flow.

" The visage of pain.............."

~ The visage of pain ~



Does pain have a face?
I want to see it and embrace!

Does it come in a phase?
I want to listen what it says!

Its depth, how does one gauge?
Until one turns on life's every page!
Why does it come in a deluge?
When it comes, why do we seek refuge?

Isn't it a fact that pain makes you strong?
In accepting it, what's wrong?

Pain is the other side of joy,
We accept joy; but why does pain annoy?
Pain teaches us joy's value,
Then pain itself, why should we devalue?

" The Way Of Love..............."

the Prophet's path, the way of love
only by this Love you'll rise above
like a dove that's been set free
love with longing is the key
this love with longing is the key

honey, nectar, sweetness and cream
orchids blooming by a mountain stream
starlit skies and waves on the sand
next to love they can't stand
next to this love they can not stand


yaa Robii yaa sarii'ar ridho irham man
ro'su maalihir-rojaa
wa thina maa qod sa-alnaa bi liqoo-i
khoiril anami
yaa khoiral a'anaami



yaa Robii yaa man-ismuhu dawa wa dzikruhu
syifaa-un lana
robbiy faj'al mujtama'na ghoyatuhu husnul
khitami
bihusnil khitami

how can I find a way to express
something that cannot be thought or guesses
something more than just words?
this love is neither seen nor heard
this love is neither seen nor heard

Love is the rope given by ALLAH
it will save you from every flaw
grasp it then He wil draw you near

" Void..............."

~ Void ~



My heart...
I look up to see the sky
All covered with shades of clouds
Breeze of air comes and flows away my hair
It goes through each layer of my soul
And then comes out empty

I feel nothing...
Nothing anymore
I hold no heart
No soul,
Knows no meaning of love
Cares for no one

Just a Void.

" Prisoner.............."

~ Prisoner ~


Hold me not
for I am free
as wild as wind
and boundless as the skies,
higher than the mountains
deeper than the ocean,
seek me all you will


hold me not
for I am free
clasp me in your hand,
place me in your mind
a shadow I will be,
grasped and captured by you all


but I am never there.

" Allah Knows..........."

~ Allah Knows ~

Allah Knows..... When you are tired and discouraged from fruitless efforts...

Allah knows how hard you have tried.

When you've cried so long and your heart is in anguish...
Allah has counted your tears.

If you feel that your life is on hold and time has passed you by...
Allah is waiting with you.

When you're lonely and your friends are too busy even for a phone call...
Allah is by your side.

When you think you've tried everything and don't know where to turn...
Allah has a solution.

When nothing makes sense and you are confused or frustrated...
Allah has the answer.

If suddenly your outlook is brighter and you find traces of hope...
Allah has whispered to you.

When things are going well and you have much to be thankful for....
Allah has blessed you.

When something joyful happens and you are filled with awe...
Allah has smiled upon you.

When you have a purpose to fulfill and a dream to follow...
Allah has opened your eyes and called you by name.

Remember that wherever you are or whatever you are facing...
Allah Knows !!!!!!!!

" Walking in the rain................"

~ Walking in the rain ~



I chose to walk
I go out late
when everyone was asleep
it’s dark

I walk for miles without a goal,
not going any place.

its heavy rain
no one can see me,
or
how I’m filled with pain.

They only try to keep themselves dry
, and get out of the rain.

Myself
I just keep walking,
not caring if I’m wet.

Maybe if I walk enough I’ll finally forget.

But.........
the memories of you keep haunting me,
torturing my brain.
And the tears keep streaming down my face,
so I hide them in the rain

" For Those You Love.............."

~ For Those You Love ~


Smile each day for those you love.
Let them know by the brightness of your face
that you are happy they are in your life.
Even if there are times you argue and disagree.

Touch each day those you love.
Hold them close,

The human touch is
one of the most comforting things in our world,
and one of the most reassuring.

Speak softly each day to those you love.
Those whispers of intimacy
that tell them that what you say is important
But meant for their ears and their ears only.

Muse quietly each day of those you love.
Allow yourself to find those things
that you truly admire and respect in that person.

Forgetting, at least for the moment,
any of the negative.

Allow yourself to be vulnerable to those you love.
It is a most frightening experience to be without shields,
But it can also be the most wonderful flight in the world
To find another holds your spirit
carefully within their heart.

Believe that you deserve those you love.
Your love is the most precious gift
that you can bestow on another human.

You deserve to be loved in return.
without constraints.
without reserve.

Be honest with those you love.
Let them know how important they are in your life.
Take care that they never have to guess
at what you think and feel.

There may come a time
when they walk away.
and then would you regret not telling them?
in all possible ways?

" May Allah Bless You................"

~ May Allah Bless You ~

May Allah bless you with discomfort at easy answers,
half truths, superficial relationships,
so that you will live deep within your heart.

May Allah bless you with anger at injustice,
oppression and exploitation of people
so that you will work for justice, equality and peace.

May Allah bless you with tears to shed for those
who suffer from pain, rejection, starvation and war,
so that you will reach out your hand
to comfort them and change their pain into joy.

And may Allah bless you with the foolishness to think
that you can make a difference in the world,
so that you will do the things which others tell you cannot be done.

" A holy Encounter..............."

~ A Holy Encounter ~


When you meet anyone,
remember it is a holy encounter.

As you see him,
you will see yourself.

As you treat him,
you will treat yourself.

As you think of him,
you will think of yourself.

Never forget this,
for in him [or her]
you will find yourself
or lose yourself.

" Learned................"

~ Learned ~



It is not what we read,
but what we remember,
that makes us learned


It is not what we intend,
but what we do that makes us useful.


It is not a few faint wishes,
but a life long struggle,
that makes us valiant.

" Ahlan was'sahlan ya Ramadhan ............"

~ Ahlan was'sahlan ya Ramadhan ~


Ya Ramadan!,

In the name of Allah, the most Merciful, the most Kind

A blessed month is casting its shadow upon us
A night of this month is better than a thousand months
Bear with patience for the sake of Ar-Rahman
It's a continuous training to strengthen our Imaan.

Glory be to Allah who sent Ramadan as a mercy to mankind
Its a purification of our soul, our heart, and our mind
With the most sincere devotion and love we fast
To be cleansed and free from sins of the past

Glorified is He, who choseth this holy month,
To test our sabr and fill our hearts with warmth
Of his Divine Light, His blessings shall glow,
The Seer of the unseen, all He does know

Ya Allah! For thee, let my breath be more pleasant than musk
Ya Allah! For thee, let me be thankful when day turns to dusk
My thoughts and heart are purified, my eyes truly see'
This blessed month, the month of spiritual rhapsody!

Ya Allah! For thee, my life I shall live!
Ya Allah! For thee, my soul I shall give!
In the name of Allah, the most Merciful, the most Kind,
Praise be to Allah, who sent Ramadan as a gift to mankind


~ 0O0 ~

As I look searchingly into the sky
I look for a sign from Allah the most high
People think I'm crazy sitting in this cold
But I quest for something more precious than gold

For mankind this sign represents something great
but for the rejected one, it fills him with hate
Suddenly out of the darkness the moon does appear
the whole world rejoices 'Ramadan is here'

During Ramadan the shaytan is in chains
and Allah's mercy for a month reigns
The doors of heaven are open wide
begging for mankind to enter and abide

So often in Hadith we are reminded and told
that rewards are multiplied by many a fold
In this month do good deeds and read Quran
spend your time wisely and learn Islam

After all these years I have made up my mind
the right path and salvation I wish to find
To Allah's will I will surrender at last,
enshallah, Allah will forgive my past

Forgive-all those sins too good it sounds
but Allah's mercy knows no bounds
With sins stacked like mountains so high
will be forgiven within a blink of an eye

This Ramadan my heart and soul are alive
ready to change and ready to strive,
No more will the shaytan hold me back
in the worship of my Lord nothing will lack

Together lets make the decision to change
our priorities in this life lets re-arrange
This life on Earth is short and fast
but the life in the hereafter will forever last

Ironically this life for us holds much value
when the next life is the one thats true
To make effort on Dunya we never tire
but will it take us to paradise or hell fire?

This month will give a fresh perspective
on the way we ought to and the way we live
With Zikr and prayer lets increase our Iman
Join me and together lets celebrate Ramadan

With Ramadan here the changes begin,
Firstly walking away from a life of sin
The shackles of sin I have worn so long
Now caste away to the righteous I belong

The seeker finds and mercy does shower
On lail-a-tul Qadr - the night of Power
The Quran came down on this blessed night
A guidance for mankind an illuminating light

From the depth of your Soul please pray
as Duas are accepted and sins wiped away
Ask with a clean heart is all Allah requires
and ask for whatever good the soul desires

Listen to the Quran every night in Tarawih
Ah.. Allah's words what spiritual ecstasy
It cools your heart and calms your soul
So with crystal clear vision perceive your goal

For this goodness to last there is a price
For the Deen of truth you need sacrifice
To toss aside Dunya you hold so dear
Nothing but Allah will you ever fear.

Tossing and turning through every night
the demon called Dunya you need to fight
the demon called nafs you need to tame
because struggling to surrender is your ultimate aim

Etikaf is a another gift that Allah sent
The Last ten days in His path spent
in the Mosque in the presence of your Lord
doing Zikr, Talawat or Salah at your own accord

These days to Allah you must also dedicate
then disbelief and ignorance your will hate
The Quran and Sunnah will be your guide
Only then faith in your heart will reside.

Beginning this Ramadan lets make amends
Study and practice until our life ends
Everything but our deeds we leave behind
this is the truth to which we were blind

Our cars, wealth and house on earth will stay
our actions are the companions on that day
when your breath expires so does hope
so hold on firmly to Allah's rope

There is great wisdom in this rhyme
Its dedicated to me before its my time
for these changes my soul does yearn
this Ramadan enshallah its my turn