Saturday, December 25, 2010

~ Wound ~

Wound ........

Love is a fire that burns unseen,
a wound that aches yet isn’t felt,
an always discontent contentment,
a pain that rages without hurting,

a longing for nothing but to long,
a loneliness in the midst of people,
a never feeling pleased when pleased,
a passion that gains when lost in thought.

It’s being enslaved of your own free will;
it’s counting your defeat a victory;
it’s staying loyal to your killer.

But if it’s so self-contradictory,
how can Love, when Love chooses,
bring human hearts into sympathy?

Sunday, December 19, 2010

~ The Journey~

The Journey.......

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice --
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.

"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do.

though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.

It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.

But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do
determined to save
the only life you could save.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

~ The Game of Love ~

The Game of Love .......

Love is a cruel game.
It has a line so thin between winning and losing,
it seems to almost laugh at you.

Love is a game that can be elusive.
No matter how hard some try to join in,
love always finds a way to slither away.

Love is a game that has an unusual way of conning you into it.
It may sneak up behind you,
or confront you face-to-face.

Love is a fast-paced game that changes quickly.
One moment you can be on top of the game,
the next, you can be dragging behind in the gutters.

Love is a game without any rules.
Anyone can be a victim to the game of love,
though not always does this feel true.

Love is a game that is surreal when winning.
Everything seems to be perfect,
life seems to be flawless.

Love is a game that always finds a way to turn the tables on you.
Just when everything seems too good to be true,
love has a way of turning it back around and rubbing it in your face.

Love is a game that never ends peacefully.
No matter what happens one side will still feel empty,
in the game of love someone always has to lose.

Monday, December 13, 2010

~ Whisper of the Heart ~

Whisper of the Heart .........

as the light pierces the dark
friday morning, illuminating
everything in its path
I woke up with a purpose;

my time has come,
this is the end of the road,
scavenging through my senses
I regain my conscious;

as I slowly open my eyes
the sound of my heart beating
and the calmness of the land
tell me everything is going to be ok;

could not help think what could be,
if the sun rose with you here with me.
thoughts deep within, tantalizing,
embedded visions so mesmerizing.

tucked away, as my heart becomes still,
once more imagination does it will.
thinking all day of magic we share,
close my eyes and picture you here.

emotions set in, sparking the flame,
and creating such burning desire.
sometimes love is but a game,
we are burnt by the roaring fire.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

~ Biarkan ~

Biarkan ..........

Biarkan saja...
masa berlalu
kita tidak mampu untuk mengejarnya
hanya lakukan apa yang patut dilakukan

biarkan saja ...
apa yang hendak dia lakukan
kita hanya mampu melihat
berkata apa

biarkan saja ...
apa yang dia kejarkan
kita tidak mampu untuk menahannya

biarkan saja ....
apa yang ia ingin miliki
kita tidak mampu untuk menghalangnya

biarkan saja ...
kita hanya ada mata untuk melihat
ada teliga untuk mendengar
dan ada tangan untuk berdoa

biarkan saja ...

sesungguhnya kita tidak berdaya
hanya pada Allah kita memohon
agar tidak menjadi orang yang alpa
dan hanya menuruti nafsu

Saturday, December 4, 2010

~ Along the Way ~

Along the Way ........

Along the way,
a moment shimmers into being,
frames itself
to image where you are.
You see it in an instant,
choose aperture and shutter
to best expose the secret
opening in your lens,
in clearest shades
of light and shadow.

Some images are signposts,
a mark
of where you've been,
and others, guides
to where you've yet to go.
Destination never was the point,
for any line is many points,
each an opportunity
to stop
and turn
and look at what you find,
and what finds you,
along the way.

What matters is how
–not when or where,
or even what–
you see.

With each exposure
grows an attitude of seeing
not the surface,
but the light
which opens,
from the center.
And together,
these moments make
a luminous arrangement,
a constellation
to brighten midnight skies
for those you've met,
and known,
and loved
along your way.

~ One More Time ~

One More Time ........

Nothing I must do
Nowhere I should be
No one in my life
To answer to .... but me

No more candlelight
No more purple skies
No one to be near
As my heart slowly dies

If I could hold you one more time
like in the days when you where mine
I'd look at you 'till I was blind
So you would stay

I'd say a prayer each time you'd smile
Cradle the moments like a child
I'd stop the world if only
I Could hold you one more time

I've memorized your face
I know your touch by heart
Still lost in your embrace
I'd dream of where you are

If I could hold you one more time
Like in the days when you were mine
I'd look at you 'till I was blind
So you would stay

I'd say a prayer each time you'd smile
Cradle the moments like a child
I'd stop the world if only
I Could hold you one more time

One more time

Friday, November 19, 2010

~ Life Goes On ~

The mind never stops

About the complexities,
mysteries of life.

A pain that is sweet,
a storm that is still... about to...!
it never explains,
just reflects; the vastness...

What is it?
but still... hopeful am I?
probably... I am.

Struggling in its every moment,
every step,
but never ever disappointed,

life goes on...

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

~ I've Dreamed Many Dreams ~

I've Dreamed Many Dreams ........

I've dreamed many dreams that never came true.
I've seen them vanish at dawn.
But I've realized enough of my dreams thank the Lord,
To make me want to dream on.

I've prayed many prayers when no answer came,
Though I've waited patient and long,
But answers have come to enough of my prayers
To make me keep praying on.

I've trusted many a friend that failed,
And left me to weep alone,
But I've found enough of my friends that are really true,
That will make me keep trusting on.

I've sown many seeds that have fallen by the way,
For the birds to feed upon,
But I've held enough golden sheaves in my hand,
To make me keep sowing on.

I've drunk from the cup of disappointment and pain
I've gone many days without song,
But I've sipped enough nectar from the Roses of Life
To make me keep living on!

Monday, October 18, 2010

~ Walking Alone in Togetherness ~

Walking Alone in Togetherness ......

Walking alone in togetherness,
strolling a deserted path
Arms of a nearby oak tree reaching,
aching to touch the darkened sky

Lost loves and lives
Crumpled leaves long forgotten
Forbidden pleasures pulling
Tugging from every direction

Haunting cries of those forsaken
Crowding the rocky passage
Morals and ethics from generations past
Fallen by the wayside

Earthly beings may prove unfaithful
Leaving one to walk alone
A new understanding to be awarded
To those with rich hearts filled

When times of trial and dismay take hold
A human companion could prove false
Leaving nothing of compassion
A barren tree incapable of support

Grasping for eternity
His great name renewed
Earthly pleasures abandoned
Mortalism now understood

In time comes the perception
Do not renounce Him above
For it is better to walk alone in togetherness
then to walk together, alone

Saturday, October 16, 2010

~ Love is like a flower ~

Love is like a flower........

Love is like a flower with proper nurturing
it blooms and flourishes as each day passes.

Yet, if it is neglected,
in a moment's time it soon withers and dies.

To hold love,
we must treat it as a rare and tender flower,
nurturing it with the utmost patience and care.

To keep it vibrant and alive
it takes many long hours
of continuous effort and constant attention.

To lose it
takes only a moment of
forgetfulness, disinterest and mistrust.

To sow the seeds of love is
as wonderful as sowing the seeds
of magnificent garden,
and watching them
flourish and grow is a marvel in itself.

To sow the seeds of love
only to watch them wither and choke,
like a garden that's become full of weeds,
is a crime of the heart that none should commit.

Love can last an eternity,
like the gardens of a forbidden tropical paradise,
yet, in an instant,
it can be destroyed
by a hurricane of hate,
in a sea of bitterness and despair.

Friday, October 8, 2010

~ Reality ~

Reality ........

How CAN a single soul know what reality is?
For God only knows what the answers become
And the final say in all situations is His!

If you say you are in reality, what do you mean?
In the past, the present, or the future,
It does not exist during any of those times,
Reality is not past, present, future, or in between.

Moment to moment reality will change
And only during one given moment can reality be.
Reality becomes something new and restructured
That with each passing second you will see.

All that you have is this moment in time
And to be realistic is to understand
That the only thing real in this life right now
Is that God holds your soul in His Hand.

Monday, October 4, 2010

~ Only The Blind Can See ~

Only The Blind Can See ........

The air we breathe cannot be seen
And yet it fills our breasts
The stars so high we cannot touch
But we admire them never the less

The depth of the world is so shallow
For we judge only what is in sight
If we close our eyes and open our minds
It will be revealed that night is day and day is night

Nothing is what it seems
If you trust in only with your eyes
Open your heart and release the spirit
Leave behind the tears and cries

True joy can only found
If you take the time to look deep within
The outer appearance is only a shell
While the truth is under the skin

Distance in fact is many miles
It is far if that is what you see
But if you look with your heart and not the eyes
I'm as close to you as you are to me

Saturday, October 2, 2010

~ The Withered Rose ~

The Withered Rose .........

If beauty is like a rose,
then it will also have a thorn.
Before you know it,
you’ll get pricked,
then you’ll feel the sting of that beauty.
Was it worth it then?

If beauty is like a rose,
then you’ll have to nurture it properly.
Lest it shall die and in it’s place
you’ll find nothing
but an ugly weed.

If beauty is like a rose,
then in time it will wither.
The petals will fall and in it’s place
nothing will be,
even when nurtured,
the petals will fall
and be scattered in the wind.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

~ Move On ~

If you are unhappy, be unhappy.
Do not judge yourself for being that way.

It is wonderful to be unhappy.
Love your unhappiness.
It means you are ready for change.

You are ready to go forward,
yet you mourn for the old;
you are not ready to let go.

Allow the unhappiness,
there is purposefulness in it.
Remove from your life everything that inhibits you
from being the totality of yourself.
That is called "becoming"

Remove from your thoughts all the have to's, should's, must's.
Remove the images you think you must be and just be.

Embrace your life.
Know that you created it.
Love all that you have been, said and done.
Know it was all purposeful.

Never see anything as a failure.
See everything as an accomplishment.
Love the hurt, the pain, the sorrow.
For what an experience!
What a wonderment!
What jewels of wisdom are now in your treasure!

Be your own teacher, friend, counsel.
Confide in yourself, speak to yourself.

Seek answers that feel right within your soul.
Your soul knows what the truth is,
and it will tell you through feelings.
Always listen to your feelings.
They know ... they know.

Live, experience, feel.
Do not seek to identify yourself.
You will never have a point of understanding
from which you can say,
"This is who I am!",
for in each expanding moment
of consciousness,
who you are will have changed
into the next moment of being.
To know who you are
is to feel what you feel each moment.

Never do anything,
no matter how far you are into it,
if you lose the joy of it
and it becomes monotonous and mundane.
Do away with it
and do something else that brings happiness.

For perhaps what you needed to learn from it
you have already achieved.
Go wherever you want to go,
Do whatever you want to do,
for as long as you want to.

Create only for the mere joy of creating.
When you create for you,
you will soon find youself living in joy.

Don't ever strive to have anyone understand you.
If they wish to understand,
they will.

Love everyone.
Have compassion for all other entities.
You do not need to go and take care of them.
Love them by allowing them to express however they choose.
That is the greatest thing you can do!
If they are angered or disappointed by your life,
love them
by allowing them to be that way.
Then you have become a great person, a great light!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

~ Unspoken ~

Unspoken ....

Deep inside I feel this pain
tears fall in my hands when I pray

Everywhere I go...I see you
and the cold breeze takes my breath away
I feel so lonely...
so lonely, since you left me
since you have chosen her

Now I realize the truth
you never wanted me in your life
its just only me
that needed you
but you ...
just needed me as a friend
a friend to chat
just only to eliminate boredom
not more than that

I should have known that earlier
before it left a deep scar on my heart

Now .......
just watching you from far

embrace the reality
that I dont deserve to be yours
you had many women in your life
I'm just numbers

There was such a great barrier
between us
just like heaven and earth
you are fair ... I'm dark
you are young ... I'm old

The unspoken pain
left me in solitude ...

Monday, September 20, 2010

~ Sometime, someone from somewhere ~

Sometime, someone from somewhere .....
is thinking of you
And remembers your good thing that have been done
Let it be whoever is
but thoughts are always great

Sometime, someone from somewhere .....
wanting to steal your heart
and you will not even know about it
Let it be whoever is
but love has its own freedom to share

Sometime, someone from somewhere .....
dreaming of you
And feels your love runs through their heart
Let it be whoever is
but allow your heart to meet with their soul

Sometime, someone from somewhere .....
wanting to kiss you
And wants to feel your warm lips comfort them
Let it be whoever is
but let their love speak through lips

Sometime, someone from somewhere .....
wanting to love you
And wants to feel your soul in side them
Let it be whoever is
but allow the love to fulfill its thirst

Sunday, September 19, 2010

~ Alone ~

Alone .........

Are you all alone?
Do you feel that
you stand in solitude in this crowded world?
Do you enjoy the company of yourself
or do you hate being alone?

Loneliness is not a desirable option,
but often it helps to unclog one's mind.

Spend a few minutes alone,
away from the maddening crowds
and delve deep into your soul.

As you drift into the chasms of your thoughts,
you will find harmony with the world.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

~ Someone ......Somewhere ~

Someone Somewhere ..........

Someone somewhere

who is missing you

Someone somewhere

who wish to talk to you
Someone somewhere

who wants to touch you

Someone somewhere
who always think about you

Never feel alone

Because even if you dont believe

There's someone out there

Someone who loves you
and you dont know it

Someone somewhere

There's always someone
who hides their love

Who just wont admit it

Someone somewhere

Never put yourself down
Cause someone always thinking about you
Dont ever take them for granted

Cause someone out there
is in love
In love with you

Everyone has to have a someone

Everywhere there has to be love

In every how there is a way

Remember now and forever
There's someone out there...

who loves you.

Monday, September 13, 2010

~ Life Is A River ~

Life is a river.
At its headwaters, it is small
and gentle, slow flowing.

As it proceeds downstream,
it widens and deepens,
with turbulence beginning
to mar its glassy surface.

For mile after mile, it rushes,
sometimes calmly, smoothly,
but at other times turning into
raging white water, bubbling
and churning until it opens
once again into calm water.

It nourishes others along the way
and in turn draws needed sustenance
from the many brooks and creeks
that connect with it.

There is harmony,
a balance of forces in its flow.

Sudden storms may erupt to send
excessive runoff into its banks,
temporarily flooding and harming
those lands it serves…but patience
sees its return to its peaceful path.
Through rapids, over waterfalls,
rising and falling with the rains or
drought, it stays its course,
consistent, dependable, tenacious.

Finally, this river reaches the delta,
where it spreads out as a sprawling,
flat plain mixing with the saline
of the sea.

Here it slows its flow
and, now spent, rests until disappearing
into the abyss that consumes it.

The calm of the eddies,
the exhilaration of the rapids,
the peril of the waterfalls,
and the peace of the delta,
all add richness to the river.

Friday, September 3, 2010

~ No Regrets ~

No Regrets ........

People come and people go
they cross our life
and touch our soul

having them gave such a wonderful feeling
eventhough ...
there were ups and downs
no regrets ....

I want to live life to the fullest,
and not have any regrets,
for the things I say,
for the things I do,
as I pass by my way on through.

I want to be the best I can be,
every waking moment,

I want to love and be loved,
and live life joyously,
quietly and peacefully

and when I am no more,
and I’ve gone
there will be no need for excuses, yet,
definitely no regrets.

everything happens for a reasons .....

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

~ Strangers ~

Strangers .........

We are both strangers at the start….
Learn to accept as friends….
As days pass by we became entwined….

We laugh together and shared the good times….
We shed tears when were down….
We build a foundation and dreams as high as the sky….
We cherish that times we spend together….
We thought it will last forever, till the end of time….


You became silent and never speak up….
You judged me and set me aside….
You abandoned me ...
What shall I do...

we were strangers….

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

~ I'm Only Human ~

I'm Only Human .......

Like a bird,
without wings I fall

Like a boat,
without sails I drift

Like a clock,
without time I wait

Like a fish,
without water I struggle

~ * ~

Oh Allah...

let me not walk away from this only with hunger and thirst.
Nor with tiredness and lack of sleep.

Oh Allah ....

grant our dua and grant us steadfastness in our amal.
Seeking nothing but Your Redha.

Oh Allah.....

let us not forget the lesson we have learnt.
Let this Tarbiyah strengthen us through.

~ Don't Cry Anymore ~

Don't Cry Anymore .....

Lift your head,
don’t cry anymore
Let God in, your heart he’ll restore.
Say a prayer
Let peace of mind come to you again.

Calm your vengeance, let pain subside
Throw your worries into the tide.

Give yourself, let Him control.
This world is nothing, all will fade
Your hope in Him, do not trade.

He is our Maker, the key to life
Trust in him,
There’ll be no strife.

Give yourself unto the Lord,
Eternal happiness will be your reward
In the end when all is dead
Those who serve with Him they’ll tread.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

~ Heart ~

Heart ..........

Many times
I had given absolute power to the heart
believing in its strength to lead

Wrong, I was,
again and again

The heart was too weak
when encountered love
It submitted too much,
too soon
No critical pause,
no analysis.
Too inexperienced,
too inefficient

I must seize its power
and declare democracy.

Monday, July 26, 2010

~ Waiting ~

Waiting ..........

for what?
I dont know

I'm waiting

Waiting Patiently
Waiting something to Happen

Countless Prayers
and Long Nights of Awake

Patiently Waiting
Waiting something to Happen

I'm still waiting patiently
for something to happen !

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

~ Today is My Birthday ~

Today is my Birthday ......

It is my birthday
I'm so thankful and grateful to Allah
I am blessed with beautiful kids
and wonderful people around me

I realize, I'm not young anymore
not beautiful anymore
but learning to be more wiser than yesterday

to my beautiful kids
and wonderful people around me
thank you so much for your support
and making me alive

We work hard
We share love deeply and completely
and over and over
and again and again.

We struggle and grow
and always come through
with more love and respect
for each other.

When I look around me
and see truly how many people are miserable,
how many choose nor love or truth,
and I'm so thankful to Allah
made me realize that
I am so very lucky.

Thank you Allah ..

The tribulations and challenges that you give me are nothing
to the love that you also give.

The love is as a blanket
that supports me -not covering me,
but carrying me on all
my journeys through-out life.
Even when I forget that it's there
Even when I rage and cry with seeming despair
You are there
To support me
To carry me through to the next corner of life.
Many beautiful corners have you transported me to and through

Yaa Allah thank you for your blessings.

(syukran to all who have wished me " Happy Birthday " ....jazakallahu khairan )

Friday, July 2, 2010

~ The Sound of Silence ~

The sound of silence.........

The sound of silence echoed in my ears
Rescuing me from the plethora of darkness,
The sound of silence took away my fears
Of losing anything as I was left with starkness.

The sound of silence chilled my spine
With thousand volts of solitude,
The sound of silence mixed with mine
And became the best sound of fortitude!

The sound of silence gave me might
To overcome my weakness wholly,
The sound of silence cleared my sight
To perceive the sunny side of life solely.

Monday, June 28, 2010

~ Silences ~

Silences .........


Allow whispers to
Travel long distances.


Make silences
Come to life.


Life itself
Is a

Two silences.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

~ Realize ~

Realize .................

Here I am alone in my bedroom,
With just my thoughts for company,
Sitting here thinking, finally believing,
That I was just too blind to see,
That however hard I tried,
However hard I strived,
Working to make everything goes right,
Still everything remains the same.

Life’s not all about that history behind you,
Or the things that you do that you don’t really want to,
All you need is that
someone right there,
with you,
to love you,
right in front of your eyes.

All I need to do is realize…..

Take The Good With The Bad
Smile With The Sad
Love What You Got
Remember What You Had,
Always Forgive But Never Forget,
Learn From Your Mistakes But Never Regret,
People Change
Things Go Wrong…
But Just Remember,
That Life Goes On.

Monday, May 31, 2010

~ Sleepless ~

Sleepless .........

I'm here sleepless,
Sitting on my bed waiting,
For the night to take me,
I want it to so bad,
I'm tired of the noise,
The noise of my brain keeping me up,
Not even the plucking of strings
from my bass could tune the noise out,
I want so badly for the night to take me,
take me into its gentle warmth

Thursday, May 27, 2010

~ Sometimes You Have To Choose A Song .~

Sometimes You Have To Choose A Song .........

Rain . . .

Softly falling down . . .
each drop a symphony of sound . . .
as it hits the tin roof . . .
tap . . . tap . . . tap.

It can sound just like a sad song with a slow beat . . .
the kind that makes you daydream . . .
and feel sad and sigh . . .
as you think of what might of been or could be in your life.

Or maybe it is a happy song that brings back sweet memories . . .
tender thoughts and special smiles . . .
thinking of someone who makes your heart beat faster . . .
and your laughter ring with happiness and joy.

Or maybe it is a love song . . .
with sweet and soft lyrics . . .
tender and romantic and sensual . . .
that makes you think of dancing in the rain.

Only you can decide which song . . .
is the one you are hearing . . .
which music soothes your soul . . .
and which song you want to sing along with.

Sometimes, you have to choose a song . . .
and the choosing isn't easy.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

~ Come Fly With Me ~

Come fly with me ........

Come fly with me ...
Glide along with me through the gentle flow of the wind.
Gently whisper your secrets in my ear with your golden wings.

Fill me with your humid breath of strength
as I fly into the clouds.

Delicately embrace my heart with your essence like soft flowing silk.

Smile sweetness upon me
so I'll always soar above mountains,

Above lush green hills and valleys refreshed by the streams.
Be like the sun's rays,
restoring my hopes and dreams.

Come fly with .....
Let me hear the sounds of meadowlarks echoing throughout.

Show me how the trees, bushes and flowers lightly dance about.

Give me the true vision of beauty to enjoy all these lavish blessings.

Let me feel the glorious freedom
and peace in life as I gently glide,

To the blue skies displayed with a bounty of colors and rainbows,

Becoming one heart and soul with the countenance of Creation,

Where the knowledge of the mysteries is within our reach.

Come fly with me
Come fly with me and be free
Fly freely and touch the sky
Feel the rainbow and see the clouds
Come fly with me
Take my hand
And come fly with me

to our world

away from all sadness and loneliness

only us


fly with me

Saturday, May 22, 2010

~ Touch the Life ~

Touch the Life......

Life is a sea of experiences
Many ups and many downs
Waves of which makes a man dynamic
Enjoying sometimes-sometimes pathetic

One who wants real joy
Must not desired any toy
Must be ready to play with stones
Tomb, disaster and broken bones
Flowers and showers are there
Also many opposite in nature

Go in the sea of struggle and strife
If you want to touch the life....

Monday, May 17, 2010

~Why ~


At sometime,
all of us have asked
profound word
attacks our minds with confusion, frustration, worst
of all misconceptions, but we continue asking

This three letter word,
withholds no answers,
no certainty
Our minds carry the riddles around and around
The stronghold is debilitating
We have to accept or convince ourselves there are no answers.

No reasoning that stands firm,
no theory and
no finality.
Human suffering continues on
As the song plays
We listen but the melodies are none
rhythms disappear
Endings are beyond the mountains
Unattainable concept of why?
No trace of existence

Don't leave ourselves open
Close the door of why

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

~ A Woman ~

A Woman ..............

Where will your heart be now?
Always thinking you‘re going to fail
But what you need to do is hold on to faith
Until the sinking ship sails again

You are the old and the new
You are brave and bold
You are the independent woman
You will listen to your child,
And will always be by their side
with the strength God has given you
Just because you are the special gift from above
The Women and Mothers of love

You are the women the world cannot do with out
You’ll stay strong
when days are weak and filled with doubts
You will wipe away your tears
when you are left alone to achieve by yourself
Taking on heartaches and fears
Giving young women a chance
to be what they already are
Strong, Reliant, Noble, and Intelligent
as a result of women torments
in past history.

Where will your heart be now?
Not knowing you always
had the ability to take on such responsibilities
You are the group that builds
each other and believe in one another for today
You can lift your voice and rejoice
Raise your hands in the air
Telling the Lord your God
that you are so thankful to be
The Independent Women and Mothers of love

Sunday, April 25, 2010

~ The Essence of Me ~

The Essence of Me ......

You can find it ..........

...In each line of poetry I write...

...Breathed in every word that I speak...

...Eased into each movement I make...

...Etched into every expression on my face...

...Fired in each synapses in my brain...

...Ignited in every fire of my passion...

...Glazed in each one of my stares...

...Spread in every curve of my smile...

...Drenched in each tear I cry...

...Exhaled in every sigh...

...Stitched into each fiber of my soul...

...All that is the essence of me

Saturday, April 24, 2010

~ Soulmate ~

Soulmate .........

He saw her over the gulf of eternity
Sitting under the great oak.
Her body swathed in white chiffon
and lace,
Her knees up
Her body cradled over
the box... the box of gold..
her gift.

She sat there crying,
Her sobs touching every fibre of her soul.
For inside the box, was her gift,
of love, her soul, her desire, her need.
The precious seeds of her womanhood.

With love
those seeds would grow,
venture out of the box into the sunlight,
and through their growth
fill her life with color
the beautiful perfume of flowers,
the wonder of birds and butterflies
attracted by it's beauty.

But her box was grey,
Covered with years of neglect,
the seeds resting on bone-dry soil.
Her heart in hibernation.
Her tears tracing lines down her cheek.

He watched her.
He understood.
She fell asleep.

She woke to see him there
The box cradled lovingly in his lap
Toolbox by his side.
He was a million miles away
across the great gulf
yet seemed to be right next to her.
And she watched,
as his loving hands treasured it
wiped away the years
brought back the wonder of the gold,
made all the years of neglect disappear.
Time stood still as she watched.
The gold was battered,
dented and scraped,
marks of the pain in her life.
Each mark disappeared under his loving attention,
each dent pulled out
each scrape buffed clean.
Time, he seemed to have endless time,
as he focused his love on each flaw,
one by one,
tears in his eyes as he understood the pain each one signified,
then erasing it with his loving hands.
The gentle light from his eyes,
and the water from his tears,
nourished her seeds,
bringing life and beauty where there once was desolation.

And then he was there,
next to her.
She lost herself in his eyes
as he tenderly placed the treasure
in her hands.
"Take it forever!" she started to cry,
but a gentle touch to her lips stifled the cry in her throat.
"My love," he said,
"God has placed us on opposite sides of a great gulf.
Only He can make that gulf disappear, and he will,
in His own time.
Until then, we have His work to do,
each on our own side.
When that work is done, He will look on us with favor,
for it is He who sent me to you."
He took her hands in his
touched his lips to hers, and said,
"But this promise I make: when you need me, summon me.
I will come to your side.
And every night I shall return,
to wipe away every scratch,
fix every flaw,
that life has put on your gift of your womanhood.
I will lie with you and ease your pain.
And when the gulf is gone,
when eternity is ours,
I will place your gift in a place of honor,
So the world will see, and know
That I treasure you
your womanhood
your love
your life.
They will all know that you have finally received
the love you deserve."

And he was gone.
She cried.

Then a soft voice was heard from all around her
and inside her...
"My, child. When you thought it was a man you needed
I let you choose a man.
But he took your gift, and put it on a shelf
To wither
To die.
When you thought it was a lover you needed
You chose a lover
Who simply used your gift as a stepping stool
to reach over the walls in his life which he despised.
No, it is not a man you need,
for a man cannot understand your heart.
And it is not a lover you need. A lover is like a firefly,
lighting your life for a moment,
then leaving you to deal with the darkness
Until it flashes again.

So I have taken it into my own hands
and shown you what you truly need.
He is not just a man, though a man he is.
He is not just a lover, though a lover he is.
He is the man I have given you forever...
He is your soulmate."

Monday, April 19, 2010

~ Dream Versus Reality ~

Dream Versus Reality .........

Life is what we make it!
But we can never really control things.

We can’t keep things from happening
and we can’t make it happen if it won’t.
It’s all in the force of destiny.

Our dreams are reflections of what we want.

If you feel locked up like a prisoner,
then you’ll dream of freedom.

If you are tired and restless,
you’ll dream of a peaceful sleep.

If you are all alone,
you’ll dream of friendship and companionship.

If you’re broken-hearted,
then you’ll dream of falling in love.

In our dreams, we can be who we want to be.
We even have the power to control everything.

Our dreams give us the opportunity to take hold of things
the will is always out-of-reach.
We are able to see the perfect life but sadly, it’s all fantasy.
No matter how hard we dream and fantasize
about what should have been,
reality pulls us back to our senses.

We can never escape from reality.
And in reality, nothing is perfect.

In every laughter, there are tears.
In every hope, there’s disappointment.
That’s the real world.

And that’s what makes life a challenge.
And behind these challenges
are the missing pieces of the puzzle of a perfect life.

Our dreams are our refuge from the unbelievable reality.
After everything we’ve been through,
our dreams serve as our battery to keep us falling.
But reality strikes!

We have to wake up and face the great world out there.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

~ Sometimes in life ~

Sometimes in life ........

people do things that we can't explain
Sometimes they break your heart
Sometimes in life they say terrible things
and the friendship falls apart

Sometimes in life it is necessary to forgive
though it may not have happened yet

Sometimes in life we go our own way
because we can forgive but not forget

Sometimes the soul is in need of healing
So we pray to God above

Today I pray for all of my friends
even the ones who show me no love ........

Thursday, April 1, 2010

~ Fears ~

Fears ...........

Me and my fears envelope me
A strange fear of the unknown
The unknown path of the untold
The untold path yet to unfold
The untold path of life....

Where would life lead me?
What lies in the path ahead?
Lost in the mirage
Me and my fears engulf me...

Is life just the way it is
Work and earn
For food and shelter,
A little more for luxury
More for riches and designer matter,
A crave for wealth
A crave for fame
For name, for power
Is this all on life?
Me and my fears insinge me

Will not all this be left behind,
When this cloak of a body declines,
And there's nothing left
Me and my fears

Monday, March 29, 2010

~ He has chosen her ~

" He has chosen her........."

Forget him,
Forget his name,
Forget his face,
Forget his kiss,
His warm embrace,
Forget the love you once knew,

Remember he has someone knew,

Forget him when they play your song,
Remember when you cried all night long,
Forget how close you once were,

Remember he has chosen her,

Forget how you memorized his walk,
Forget the way he used to talk,
Forget the things he used to say,

Remember he has gone away,

Forget his laugh, forget his grin,
Forget the dimples on his chin,
Forget the way he held you tight,

Remember he's with her tonight,

Forget the time that went so fast,
Forget the love that moved, it's past,
Forget he said he'd leave you never,

Remember he's gone forever.
Life must go on.......

Sunday, March 28, 2010

~ The Soul and the Heart ~

The Soul and the Heart ..............

Always together
And never apart
One is the soul
The other-the heart
The heart is the key
Into the soul
While the soul fills the heart
Making it whole
One shows life
And the other-love
One is a butterfly
And one is a dove

One is all joyful and happy and free
While the other is unsure
Of where it wants to be
You cannot have one without the other
They give the other one life
And love each other
They both give something
And are useless alone
They both are strong
Yet accident prone
With soul-you need love
With love-you need soul

Each makes the other
More and more whole
We all have each
And each give to all
But depending on how we use it
You either rise or you fall
So just always remember
That they are always together
And never apart
One is the soul
The other-the heart