Saturday, February 28, 2009

" The Other Man..................."

The Other Man ............

Lying on the bed
Entangled in his arms
I dream of you

Oh! what a sweet sleep
In silent tranquility
I dream of you

Loving or longing?
Lust and desire
Passions on fire…
I dream of you

Long to bear your child
No strings attached
Living in fantasy
I dream of you

Feelings of guilt
Subdued emotions…
I dream of you

How about you, my love
Do you dream too?!

Friday, February 27, 2009

" What is Life ?................."

What is life?..............
(November 14, 2007 - 10:54 PM)

Is it sitting in ur room all day,
studying ur heart out
Is it partying all night with friends, getting drunk
Is it marrying the one u love
Is it making other people proud
Is it living a life unlike any other
Is it being famous
Is it being rich or
is life just the beggining of everything to come.....

Life Is Unbelievable.
People are Unbelievable.
You are Unbelievable.
Everything is Unbelievable.
How can the world be anymore Unbelievable.........

Darkness beholds beauty
Only if anyone could see,
night turns to day
Coming face to face
with obstacles Life makes its own way.....

Through twists & turns of time
Don't panic of cuts & burns,
just get going Like a stream of that sweet spring
Let the raft of life keep flowing

There's nothing hidden in closed fists
Thinking so is a mirage of sorts
The enigma will never end nor time will allow
Let your expectations grab on to those rare opportunities.

Climates come & go as they wish
But only those fit will survive the test
Life expects so deserves a lot from us
We have to give it our best.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

" Lessons Of Life....................."

Lessons of Life.............
(January 20, 2008 - 1:05 AM)

I feared being alone, until
I learned to like myself.

I feared failure, until
I realized that I only fail when I don't try.

I feared success, until
I realized that I had to try
in order to be happy with myself.

I feared people's opinions, until
I learned that people would have opinions
about me anyway.

I feared rejection, until
I learned to have faith in myself.

I feared pain, until
I learned that it's necessary for growth.

I feared the truth,until
I saw the ugliness in lies.

I feared life, until
I experienced its beauty.

I feared death, until
I realized that it's not an end, but a beginning.

I feared my destiny, until
I realized that I had the power to change
my life.

I feared hate, until
I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.

I feared love, until
it touched my heart,
making the darkness fade into endless sunny days.

I feared ridicule, until
I learned how to laugh at myself.

I feared growing old, until
I realized that I gained wisdom every day.

I feared the future, until
I realized that life just kept getting better.

I feared the past, until
I realized that it could no longer hurt me.

I feared the dark, until
I saw the beauty of the starlight.

I feared the light, until
I learned that the truth would give me strength.

I feared change, until
I saw that even the most beautiful butterfly
had to undergo a metamorphosis
before it could fly.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

" Love Hurts Sometimes.............."

love hurts sometimes..............

Just when you're standing on top of the world
and you think everythings alright,
Bam, it's all down under and nothing but a fight.
Just when you think it's going to be o.k
and this time it's going to work,
Bam, that man you love turns you down

I don't know which is the worst,
the verbal or the beatings,
which hurts the most,
the name calling or the bruises and bleeding.
You give your life to him and this is all you get in return,
Your life's a living hell,
but if you play with fire
you're bound to get burned.

three years been up and down
All your devoted attention,
all your hopes and dreams,
You give him your all,
But he still won't respond
He'll never give in, He'll never change his ways,
Once it starts, you can bet it will never go away.

So each day you wake,
you wonder what it will be,
You try to figure out what you can do,
how to make him see.

It's an everyday battle,
you never know what to exspect,
All you ask is for a little love and respect.
But love to him is harsh,

So one day you'll wake up
and realize that
and you will let him go.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

" Grow With Love................."

Grow with Love..........

Love yourself
Accept yourself,
For self-love and self-respect
Are the basis of joy,
emotionAnd spiritual well being.

Watch your feelings,
Study your thoughts
And your beliefs,
For your existence
Is unique and beautiful.

You came to the world alone
And you go back alone.
But while you breathe
You are near To your fellow human beings,
Families, friends and strangers
As long as you are receptive.

Open yourself to lust and joy,
To the wonders of daily life and Nature.
Don’t close your door to love.
If you remain superficial,
You’ll never reach its depth.

Love is more than a feeling.
Love is also passion and devotion.

Monday, February 23, 2009

" Deep Recession......................"

Deep Recession................

Goodbye Sanity!
Your world is
Too harsh for me
Too many masks to wear
Too heavy to bear.

Hello Insanity!
At least in your’s
I can be sane.

A dark tunnel
Extends from my head
Passing through my spine
To the centre of the earth.

I am sinking
Just dropping
Like a bird’s feather
The other end of which
Is tied to a heavy thought.

Darkness always
Reminds me of you
It is ephemeral
You can’t hold it for long
Like you can
Light, resting on an object.
Like you, darkness swallows me.

It is an abyss
Without a bottom
Yet I am relaxed
Just dropping –
No mass; no matter
No matter; no mind
No mind; no thought
Just drifting –

I have left my mind
At your doorstep
It belongs to you.

Here in this world
Ah, Bliss!

Sunday, February 22, 2009

" A Place....................."

A Place ................

There's a place I go to be alone
When nothing quite makes sense
When all answers are unknown
And all thoughts are in my defense.

A place where I bring confusion
A place where I am set at ease
A place where I find a solution
A place where I don't have to please
A place where I have often dreamed
A place where I am not afraid to cry
A place where I have often screamed
And cranked my music up high.

In this place,
I'll pass much time
Doing whatever,
whatever comes to mind.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

" Hypocrites...................."


There exists a kind of people,
Who always want their way.
Sarcasm and taunt abound,
In whatever they do and say.

Always needy for help from others,
They exclaim “What is there?”
But when comes their sweet turn,
They vanish in thin air.

To be eulogized they crave,
To be praised to the hilt.
Whatever they do, is only perfect
That’s the way they are built.

They always want to be served,
By every Tom and Dick.
Whether hale and hearty,
Or when they feign sick.

To issue commands they do love,
To get their work all done.
But when comes their turn to deliver,
Then it’s no longer fun.

Fault finding is their forte,
With always a pointed finger.
Generous to their own flaws,
On a heap of excuses they linger.

That’s the world of today,
With hypocrites abound.
And if you have gotta live
Then better hold your ground.

Friday, February 20, 2009

" Material Things..............."

Material things,………….

What do they bring?
Sorrow and pain, Drive you insane!
Spend all our time, Wondering if that, Could be mine!
Things that won't last,
Worry about the past! What have I got? Not a lot!

Except the gifts that God gave,
That we might be saved
Instead of enslaved,
Until the things are paid
Save our lives from this hell,

Don't worry where we dwell
Hope we compel
We judge on possessions,
It becomes An obsession
This is regression, It comes from oppression
Have some discretion!
All that we see, Won't last for infinity,

Don't give up your divinity

All of this earth, What is it worth?
Everything comes from the dust,
So will it return
Stop your yearning, Start your learning!

Don't be tempted by the lure,
Definitely don't adore.
Only thing that endure

Stuff we learn, That's pure?
Only then can we assure,
Our lives are worth more!

" The Soul and The Heart....................."

The Soul and the Heart ................

Always together, And never apart
One is the soul, The other-the heart
The heart is the key, Into the soul
While the soul fills the heart
Making it whole
One shows life, And the other-love
One is a butterfly, And one is a dove
One is all joyful and happy and free
While the other is unsure, Of where it wants to be

You cannot have one without the other
They give the other one life
And love each other
They both give something
And are useless alone
They both are strong Yet accident prone

With soul-you need love
With love-you need soul
Each makes the other More and more whole

We all have each And each give to all
But depending on how we use it
You either rise or you fall
So just always remember that
they are always together And never apart

One is the soul
The other-the heart

" If Life was as Simple as ABC................."

If Life was as Simple as ABC...................

It makes you twist and makes you turn
When more from life is all I yearn.
It makes you sad yet makes you smile
Only for tears to roll all the while...
It gives me joys that I couldn't conceive
To a point that it's make believe
Then it steals my smiles and joys away
With a hidden trick up its sleeve...
It makes me want these feelings,
Feelings I can't shake...

But like a dark patch in moonlit water
It makes crystal what all's at stake.
Ups and downs and roundabouts
Rollercoaster, a turbulent flight...
It makes my smiles seem far away
Yet what makes me smile is in my sight.
I never know its next move
It's like a child that’s at play

Sometimes life isn’t black and white
Sometimes it’s shades of grey…
These trials and temptations test my will
I want to be a bird flying free...

For if life was as simple as ABC,
What I want would be with me.

Monday, February 16, 2009

" I Dream To Be........................."

I dream to be .......

A page in the book of history
An eagle soaring high and free.
A squirrel leaping from tree to tree
The dolphin swimming the azure sea.

I yearn to know -

The glow of love within my soul
Companionship as I grow old.
The warmth of friends banishing the cold
The meaning of life without being told.

I ache to find -

Tranquility within my mind
An oasis of calm in the desert of life.
An island of hope in the ocean of time
And read the book of the dead before I die.

I long to see -

People freed from fear and savagery
Creatures saved from lives of misery.
The light of God coming for me
As I enter a realm of complete liberty.

All these things I dream to be...

Sunday, February 15, 2009

" The Feeling Of Love...................."

The Feeling of Love ..........

Love is just not a saying; it’s a feeling felt deep within
Love is just not an expression; it’s a lifetime experience
Love is just not a happening; it’s a miracle
Love is just not a word; it’s a life…

Love and Me…. Are so much alike

I live with the beat of my heart,
and every beat carries love
I experience the emotion
and it’s the expression of love
I happen to view miracles and miracles happen with love
I live for love and life gets it’s meaning with true love

" The Forest of Illusions............."

The Forest of Illusions.............

I walk through the forest where no dreams lie
I see many ruins but I can only sigh
I see here that many die
I see here that many cry
But no one ever wonders why
The forest is alive
It feels like its following me everywhere I strive
This feeling says wherever I may lie
I will always follow the sky
Out of these emotions
Out of the Forest of Illusions
As I walk down the forest where no dreams lie
As I uncover the great mystery inside
My mind has played tricks on my ability
But it knows the forest will never die
Neither will I
Come chant the songs of mystery
Come alive with the visions of immortality
Come down with the power of pity
These feelings stay wherever I may lay
I will always follow the sky
Out of these years of devotion
Out of these emotions
Out of the Forest of Illusions
I now realize that I am lost
Lost and I have paid the cost
I shouldn't have wandered into the forest
I start to run in the shadows
Only to find many closed windows
I yell for them to be opened
There's never anyone to depend on in the end
I have wandered and ran for years
My mind moving through the years
As I run through the forest of mystery
I realize it was done mindlessly
I plan on flying
I am now dying
I have been a fool of the illusion of immortality
Another fool of a great calamity
Another poor victim of illusion
Another fool of devotion
I am finally leaving the forest
I now lay my soul to rest
Cause I have left for the west
It is so much easier to rest
I lay at night thinking
About how close I came to death
How close I came to breaking
I think where my travels will lead me
What kind of places will deceive me
Nothing will deceive me more
Than the forest I had once adored
I am leaving the forest
I don't know how I left
I now head west
Still following the sky
I now know reason why
I have followed the sun
I have run
I have followed the stars
They can leave many scars
Out of the forest I go
Through the illusions I grow
I have finally left
I have finally left
I will still follow the sky
Until the day I die
I've never had such a bad experience
Such a one that made me more serious
I have found the solution
I am out of the Forest of Illusion
I am out of the Forest of Illusion
I will never look back
I will never go back
If I do, I will get trapped
Never again will I venture
Into the Forest of Illusion

Saturday, February 14, 2009

" Thought Waves......................."

Thought Waves...........

Thoughts surge in waves unrelenting
Roaring as it crashes
Into the hard rock of my mind
Grey and withered with time

Sometimes I wish I could crumble
And be washed away with the waves
Disappearing into the depths
Carried away into oblivion

To a place so tranquil
As still as the waters in the ocean
Into the depths unseen and unknown
Masked by it's deceitful surface

Thoughts surge again in my mind
Bringing with it some surprises
Remembrances, memories
Then it recedes as quick as it came

Storm clouds gather warning me of impending rain
That will lash out furious in sweet pain
In torrents accompanied by lightning
And a thunderous deep rumble

Thoughts charge in furiously
Into every crevice, every nook
Leaving me choked, gasping
Then they recede and leave

While I remain
Washed and cleansed…
with every wave

Friday, February 13, 2009

" DISTANT LOVE.................."

DISTANT LOVE ..........

In my mind I know your smile,
the twinkle in your eyes
I've touched your face,
I've held your hand at least a thousand times.
I see your image as I drift off to sleep,
within moments,
in my dreams we will meet.
You hold me close in your warm strong arms,
you completely rapture my soul.
I melt into you,
safe and secure,
with a feeling of being whole.
The weight of your body,
trembling slightly against mine
is a feeling I'll never forget.
I reach for you,
you turn to me,
our passion I'll never regret.
You've opened my heart,
you've made me smile,
with your tenderness and caring.
I pray that for the rest of my days,
this bond with you I'll be sharing.

" Mesmerized in Love................"

Mesmerized in Love..............

sweet aroma

Is the essence of my life.

That one gentle touch

ofYour hand on mine

Has left me stunned,

Left me mesmerized.

With sensation of your love,

Filling the void and silence

Your love has given to me


that one desire

To be with you,

To be alive…

" Fly off to eternity........"

Fly off to eternity........

( Wed, July 11, 2007 - 2:32 AM )

"....In the dead of night, a Sufi began to weep.
He said, "This world is like a closed coffin, in which
We are shut and in which, through our ignorance,
We spend our lives in folly and desolation.

When Death comes to open the lid of the coffin,
Each one who has wings will fly off to Eternity,
But those without will remain locked in the coffin.

So, my friends, before the lid of this coffin is taken off,
Do all you can to become a bird of the Way to God;
Do all you can to develop your wings and your feathers......"

" Why..................."

(Wed, July 11, 2007 - 7:02 AM )

Why did we ever meet?
When we would be this apart
Why did I love you so?
When you would break heart
Why did I feel it all?
Why did I even care?
Why did I even believe?
That you would always be there

Why did we even kiss?
In that way so tender
Why did it ever feel?
Like we would last forever

Why did I adore you?
As you were my only
Why did I feel that close?
When I would be this lonely

Why did I fall for you?
Why did I feel your touch?
Now I ‘m living without it
And I don’t yearn it that much

Why did you make me smile?
When I’d turn this blue
Why did I feel so much?
When we’d be this through

Why did I believe it?
When you said you loved me

Why did we come that close?
When it’s never meant to be
Why did it feel so right?
When it would go this wrong

Why did it feel so deep?
When it won’t stay that strong
Why did you promise me?
Forever in your eyes

Why did I see an angel?
When you were just disguised
Why am I so angry
When I should know better
Why do I still regret
That we were once together
I should be strong enough
And leave us with goodbye
But I just can’t stop myself
From wondering really “why? ”

" The Soul That Does not Live in God is not Alive............"

The Soul That Does not Live in God is not Alive............

(Thu, July 12, 2007 - 1:29 AM)

Spring makes red and white flowers appear on the trees,
But the spring that is the origin of colors is colorless.

Understand what I have said, and give up all talk;
Run to the Origin without color and unite yourself to it.

Annihilate yourself before the One Existence
So that thousands of worlds leap out of you

And your pure existence flames out of itself
And goes on and on birthing different forms.

Of course, none of these forms will last.
Happy is the one who knows this mystery!

Happy is he who gives his life to know this!
He leaves this house for another far more radiant.

You cannot understand this mystery through reason;
The Way to Knowledge winds through suffering and torment.

If you do not feel pain, you do not look for healing.
The soul that does not live in God is not alive.

She seems like a soul, but does not deserve the name:
She has not been made alive by the Beloved.

The soul is given life by the four-elements
Like a lamp that burns through the night:

The light is from oil and wick, it is not eternal.
While the oil exists, the lamp burns, but then goes out.

The one made alive by God will never die.
He lives through God and not through gold or bread.

God is the Light, the Eternal Source of Lights.
The Light is causeless, as is His fiery radiance.

Like gold, God's value comes from His pure, perfect essence.

" O my soul..........."

O my soul...........

(Mon, July 16, 2007 - 10:51 AM)

O heart let go of your soul
Until you see the soul maker
Leave behind this deceptive faker
So you reach your real goal.

Unless you pass through here
You will never reach the beyond
Free yourself from worldly bond
Doubtless clear, to you appear.

If it is a sign that you seek
In this path,
Yourself you must transcend
And signs to you will speak.

" A Ray of Light......................"

A Ray of Light ..............
(Tue, July 17, 2007 - 10:12 AM)

There are times in life,
when you feel left and lonely
Standing against thousands in war,
one man only.

When your determination and belief,
is on the verge to say "no more"
Things go out of control,
getting further worse and sore.

When you engage yourself,
thinking ways of changing the past
Making yet another mistake,
of losing the present very fast.

When your brain gives up excusing,
saying "that's it no more"
Wait for The Ray of Light,
arising from the heart's core.

The light will glow, blowing your worries,
and making it all bright,
Thus making way and guiding you,
even through a dark forest night...

Just follow it till the end
and move further ahead,
Soon you will realize your life,
colored yellow, blue and red
That's the power and,
that's even right.

It's the ray of light....
It's the ray of light....

" As One........................."

As One.............
(Sat, July 21, 2007 - 12:34 AM )

I want to touch you in the darkness
As the moon casts a glow
On your beautiful face

I want to kiss you in the darkness
As my ravenous hands
Become familiar with your body

I want to taste you in the darkness
As I place nectareous kisses on your skin
Bringing about sweet pleasured bliss

I want to feel you in the darkness
As your body melds with mine
And as you enter deeply, we become as one

" To adorn my love................"

To adorn my love................

(Sat, July 21, 2007 - 12:41 AM )

I want to adorn you with soft kisses
For loving me the way you do
To lie you down and please you
The way that a man such as you should be pleasured

To hold you ever close to my breasts
Heaving with desire
Only for you
To have you sleep there

To touch you like never before
So you feel the magic of love
Coursing through your body
To get you roused

And to make your every fantasy come true
I want to adorn you, my love
With all that makes me woman

" You Have Me......................"

You Have Me......................

(Sat, July 21, 2007 - 3:38 AM )

You have me fall through the surface
You have me tell You my thoughts
You have me surrender to namelessness
You have me smile from my feet
You have me sing in my veins
You have me dance within You

You have me work and rest
You have me build on a theme
You have me ripen in the waning light
You have me ripple in the stillness
You have me play night and day
You have me grow from the ground
You have me sway to the sound

You have me remember the possibility
You have me intimate the ultimate
You have me feel the silence
You have me look up and see
You have me begin again and again
You have me sail beyond my destination
You have me plunge into the Ocean of Love

" Here I Am......"

Here I Am...........

(Sun, July 22, 2007 - 7:29 PM )

"All night, a man called “Allah”
Until his lips were bleeding.
Then the Devil said, “Hey! Mr Gullible!
How comes you’ve been calling all night
And never once heard Allah say, “Here, I am”?
You call out so earnestly and, in reply, what?
I’ll tell you what. Nothing!”

The man suddenly felt empty and abandoned.
Depressed, he threw himself on the ground
And fell into a deep sleep.

In a dream, he met Abraham, who asked,
“Why are you regretting praising Allah?”

The man said, “ I called and called
But Allah never replied, “Here I am.”
Abraham explained, “Allah has said,
“Your calling my name is My reply.
Your longing for Me is My message to you.
All your attempts to reach Me
Are in reality My attempts to reach you.
Your fear and love are a noose to catch Me.

In the silence surrounding every call of “Allah”
Waits a thousand replies of “Here I am.”

" Price of honesty.........."

" Price of honesty.........."

(Mon, July 23, 2007 - 9:54 AM )

Why do honest people always suffer?
From this, what can we infer?
Why is truth always suppressed?
And truthful people oppressed?
Why are innocent people cheated?
And corrupt people, from power, not unseated?

Why do dishonest people thrive?
While honest ones, to succeed, strive?
Why are simple people betrayed?
And truth, ruthlessly pared?
Why are people so unfair?

Except their self interests, for none, they care!
Why is the world getting from bad to worse?
Is it a blessing or a curse?

" Sigh.............."

" Sigh.............."

(Thu, July 26, 2007 - 9:31 PM )

"........I have learned silence from the talkative, toleration from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind; yet strange, I am ungrateful to these teachers............."

" Walk With Me.........................."

Walk With Me ............
( Fri, July 27, 2007 - 6:48 AM )

Walk with me, the path of life,
to explore every bend of the road
Enjoy with me the beauty of life,
along its wonderful way

Find comfort with me, in each other's arms,
when grief crosses our path
Find strength with me, in each other's strength,
when despair lies in wait

Laugh with me, a single true laugh,
to enlighten another's distress
Cry with me, a single true tear,
to understand true happiness

Cherish with me, the wonders of life,
as they need to be preserved
Rejoice with me, in the mysteries,
of what is yet to be

Find peace with me, in each other's souls,
when the world has gone insane
Find love with me, in each other's hearts,
until this life has been fulfilled

And when the path comes to an end
I hope we can say from within
We've known the beauty of true love,
our love came from within

" Be A Real Human..................."

Be a real human……..
(Sat, August 4, 2007 - 6:50 AM)

Wake up…..
to dream……
Close the eyes…
to listen…..
Shut the ears
to see
Freeze the mind..
to understand
Arrest the tongue
to talk
Numb the limbs
to express
Block the mind
to conceive
Switch off the senses
to feel
Erase the memory
to remember
Elapse the light
to see
Strengthen the heart
to suffer
Dry up the eyes
to cry……

Learn to smile
Learn to bear
Learn to suffer

Be a real human……

Thursday, February 12, 2009

" Look Into This Soul Of Mine.................

Look Into This Soul Of Mine..........
(Mon, August 6, 2007 - 7:26 AM)

Look into my soul
And reveal the true feelings inside
This is a piece of my life
My life, my story
This is in its own category
How different this is from the rest
I had to get this off my chest
All the pain I have inside
It just seems like it’s going to multiply
I sit and wonder will it ever be the same?
Or am I stuck playing this little kid game?

To people I might look like an average person
But deep inside I hide my emotions
Away from the minds
Away from the eyes
Scared some one might try to justify
Scared some one might tell me I’m wrong
That my life should just move on
At this point I don’t know what to do or what to say
All I know is that these feelings won’t go away
Away from me
Away forever
Maybe then I can get my head together

" Love Never Dies........................"

Love Never Dies ................
( Tue, August 7, 2007 - 12:57 AM)

Intellectually blind but emotionally alive
the heart of love never dies
Without love there is no life in the world
Because of love only the world goes round and round!

Love is as wide as the bright blue sky
Love is as deep as the dark blue ocean
So, love is as blue as Space and Time ever!

Love is world's great bliss
Love is world's great truth
And love is world's great power
Hence, nothing is fair or foul in love as in war!

Generosity is the eternal song of love in nature
That makes all beings survive, strong and sustain on the earth!
For, nature is bold, beautiful and bountiful in love
Nature's generous spirit of love goes beyond all barriers;
This rich power bothers about nothing
In giving everything to good, bad or ugly!
Trees, flowers, fruits, leaves and grass
Are bountiful as they are abundant in nature!

The sky is the mother of love beautified
by the bright Stars in the Universe
Like the mother, whose all absorbing love
embraces all her children,
Who beautify, safeguard and survive
her life in the world!

Flower is the symbol of love eternally
That beautifies the barren earth by its presence
And makes lovely the land by its fragrance!
Like ladies, flowers blush and bloom
in all their beauty and freshness
Just for the beetles to make possible regeneration
of their species on the earth!

Like flowers, ladies are there for beauty,
love and regeneration in the world
And so, without flowers or women there is no chance
for beetles or men in the world
To know love, learn love and lose themselves in love!

Truly, love blossoms between the hearts of man and woman
Making human relationships a great wonder in the world!
Naturally, man and woman are made for each other
To love and live perpetuating human species in the world.

Luxury or necessity, flowers are created in nature
To remind men and women to remember love in this flower world!
And perhaps for this function nature never allows
The extinction of flowers on the earth!

So, whether Cupid is there or not
To hit the hearts of men and women with arrows of love,
Flowers will go on blooming to remind men and women of love
And flowers will go on making love never die in this world!

" Missing You.............."

Missing You ............
(Tue, August 7, 2007 - 1:09 AM)

The day is the same
Like any other day
A few varied shades
And some varied words
To ponder and say

The sun rose alone
And so did it Set
The moon is rising now
Would be time for Bed

Amidst the sun and the moon
The day and the night
The sameness and the variance
A feeling so consistent
So very deep, so very insistent
Persistent and Incisive
In my heart…

And I express it to you
Like ever before
Yes – the same old feeling
For the same old love
For the very same Beloved
From a lover’s heart…

Telling him,
Writing to him
Expressing herself
In all abundance
These words of love
Flowing in tears
Making their way
Without any fears

I don’t dread anyone
Pray – Let me say to you
That the whole day through
I’ve been badly as before -
Missing you, Missing you
Missing you, My Love

And would always do
Forever and a day…
From so far away
I can only say
For you to feel…
For once, My Love
Think not with your mind
Feel with your heart
The depth of my feelings
As ever before
And as always
From me to you.

The absence of You
Agonizing me, Tormenting me
On such sultry days
When I feel so lonely
Without You -
Wish you could see
The stars in my eyes
Falling and fragmenting
Like the shooting stars
In the sky.

They say :
The shooting stars
Are lucky.
Make your wishes
As you see them fall
And it all comes true.

I wonder…
The stars in my eyes
Like broken dreams
And scattered hopes
In a thousand pieces
On the glassy slopes
Of ceaseless tears…

Would they be as lucky
To melt your heart
And make you feel
How very much
How very deep
How very often
And how very truly
I mean -
When I say to you,
My Love – that I am
Missing You, Missing You,
Missing You…

And would always do
Forever and a day
In every way…
Much more than I can say.

don’t use your mind
This is for your heart
To feel for you…
To make you feel
How very much
How very deep
And how very often
I really miss you…

Like the way
I am now writing to you
For the very Fact
That I am now
Truly, deeply, madly
And so very miserably
Missing You…

" Laughing Through Tears................"

Laughing Through Tears ..........
(Tue, August 7, 2007 - 7:48 PM)

I smile every single day
I'm happy in each photograph
They all think that I'm okay
They don't see through my fake laugh

They don't see me when I cry
For it is something that I hide
They don't see tears in my eye
When I'm breaking down inside

You'd think that after all this time
It's something they would see
That they'd look in these eyes of mine
And see the pain in me

Instead I'm laughing everyday
Like there's no pain at all
For if I laugh then they won't see
The hidden tears that fall.

Tears are falling silently
as I try hard not to cry
I can't let him see me hurting
I can't let him see me cry
Tears are falling silently

" May You Always Feel Loved............."

May You Always Feel Loved.........
(Wed, August 8, 2007 - 8:36 PM)

May you find serenity and tranquility in a world
You may not always understand.

May the pain you have known and conflict you have experienced
Give you the strength to walk through life
Facing each new situation with courage and optimism.

Always know that there are those whose love and understanding
Will always be there, even when you feel most alone.

May you discover enough goodness in others
To believe in a world of peace.

May a kind word, a reassuring touch, a warm smile be yours
Every day of your life,
And may you give these gifts as well as receive them.

Remember the sunshine when the storm seems unending.

Teach love to those who know hate,
And let that love embrace you as you go into the world.

May the teaching of those you admire become part of you,
So that you may call upon them.
Remember, those whose lives you have touched
And who have touched yours are always a part of you,
Even if the encounters were less than you would have wished.
It is the content of the encounter that is more important than it's form.

May you not become too concerned with material matters,
But instead place immeasurable value on the goodness in your heart.

Find time in each day to see the beauty and love in the world around you.

Realize that each person has limitless abilities,
But each of us is different in our own way.
What you may feel you lack in one regard
May be more than compensated for in another.
What you feel you lack in the present
May become one of your strengths in the future.

May you see your future as one filled with promise and possibility.
Learn to view everything as a worthwhile experience.

May you find enough inner strength to determine your own worth by yourself,
And not be dependent on another's judgement of your accomplishments.

May you always feel loved.

" Love Is........................"

Love Is ..............
( Thu, August 9, 2007 - 8:57 AM )

Love is the feeling
‘You have always been mine’
Love is the freedom
‘Wherever you are, you are mine’
Love surrenders to no confinement
Love is to love without reciprocation.
Love is the scent in the fresh free air,
Carts away burden of fear;
Love is like a lotus
So pure…
even, amidst mud and muck,
Love is to surrender
To the notions of love.

Love heals all discontent
A zephyr after thunderstorm.
Love is not in captivity of a body
Love is the soul – immortal
Love is the belief
That guides all to tread the path of love
Love is not a destination
It’s the everlasting journey of joy – Love is…

Love is Love.........
Love is not a contract,
No barrier no hates,
It is from the pure heart,
Never ends never stops.

Love is not flood of heart,
It is the ocean of the peace,
It is the morning glory,
Bright ever Bright.

Whoever loves,
Never hates,
Love is love,
It is not hate.

" Sheltered Emotions................"

Sheltered Emotions...........
( Thu, August 9, 2007 - 9:46 PM)

Packed in the abode of my heart
are dreams and desires most important to me,
I yearn for a life of peace and happiness
a life where I’m truly free…

Have written a thousand words on this
read a hundred books,
The feelings inside but are just so strong
the storm is not as easy as it looks…

I yearn for love, for success
and for understanding,
I just need a special someone
who beside me will always be standing…

He may not be a friend
relative or even not my lover,
He just has to be someone
A listener, an inspirer…

I look for him in friends and family,
I seek inside me too,
Today, I search to see if I can find
An ounce of him in you…

So until I cover all distance
that’s keeping our souls apart,
I’d rather keep my dreams and desires
Packed in the abode of my heart…

" Love Is Blind..............."

Love is blind........
(Fri, August 10, 2007 - 12:11 PM )

But it’s a joy which only some find
Sometimes it breaks up your heart and mind
It's something that’s so divine...

It's something I have followed for years and years,
It's something that gave me joy and tears

My love has been so dear to me
It's more than just a life to me
To live in love...
Is a life to live
It teaches you only to forgive…

I want to be in love always...
I wish this sweetness always stays

But if you learn never to love back
That is something many of us lack

Love is a gift that all should part
But remember never to break the “Heart”

I love you madly, is all I know
I am yours from my head to toe...

Love me little, but love me all…
You are my sunshine
Dearest of All..!

Love always…

" Without You............"

Without You, Love .........
(Sat, August 11, 2007 - 1:33 AM)

Without You, Love,
I'm like a star without its light,
Everything stands still, I burn within all night.

Without You, Love,
these nights are long,
They sing the tune, of our sweet old song.

Without You, Love,
I'm like a crumbled rose flower,
My essence fading away, I die every hour.

Without You, Love,
I'm like a floating cloud,
Carrying a hundred tears, crying within so loud.

Without You, Love,
I'm like a candle without its flame,
Lonely and lost,

I miss you so much,
And you are too far away
So come back, my love,
My body cries, for its soul.

and before its too love...
look into my eyes.... can see
a dying soul..............

" Why Me ?..........................."

Why Me? ..............
(Sat, August 11, 2007 - 11:03 PM
- critical moment )

Why me? Why is it me?
I have asked this question several times, throughout my life.
After all those humiliations,
When my heart cried aloud,
I looked up and said, "Why is it me?"

After all those setbacks, my ego was bruised,
I had lost my faith in everything,
And I believed I was good for nothing!

When success seemed so sweet, but was way out of my reach!
No matter how hard I tried, it always slipped!
Everybody said, "Hard luck!", I said, "How could it be?"
And I screamed, "Why me? Why me?"
When my friends started avoiding me,
And I couldn't confide in anybody.

There was no one to console me,
And I was very lonely, I said, "Why me?"
When I longed for something, but I didn't get it,
When there were jubilations but I had to miss it!
When everyone seemed to sail so smooth, and I had to fight,
When everyone fell asleep, and I was awake all the night!
And all those nights seemed so long,
When almost everything went wrong!

It was all dark, there was nothing I could see,
I asked in the fury, "Why me? Why me?"
I asked, "Why everybody is running & I am crawling?"
I asked, "Why everybody is smiling & I am howling?"
I was very sad and depressed; I had almost lost the fight,

And then came an angel with eternal light.
She held a beautiful rose in her hand,
I wondered, if she'd help me understand.

She asked, "Did you ask, 'Why me?'"
I said, "Of course, I did!
And would you please enlighten me?
I am totally destroyed, can't you see?"

She just smiled, and said gently,
"All your questions will be answered; listen carefully,
If it's not you, who should it be?
Everybody suffers, oh dear, can't you see?
It is just that when you cry for your pain loudly,
You ignore others pain knowingly, unknowingly!"

"But why me? Let it be anyone!"
"It's everyone, you are not alone!"
"But I have suffered a lot!", I was stubborn.
"Certainly not, everything had its own reason!"

"What about humiliations? Doesn't it matter?"
"It was an experience to teach you better!"
"But why my intelligence was not rewarded with success?
Why my friendship was not responded with affection?
Why my performance was not rewarded with achievements?
Why I am always the one who has to accept disappointments?"

She said, "Oh dear, why do you think you'll always get what you want?
Life is different from your dreams; you must strive for what you want!
If you want to be different, if your dreams are big,
You must try harder for the same.

And all those setbacks are part of the game!
Your loss is immaterial; your growth didn't stop.
Just believe in yourself, and you'll reach the top!

Oh dear, courage is wonderful, never surrender to pain,
Never say die, you must try again!
And you can't always have someone to console you, that's impossible!

It's your life after all; you must fight your own battles!
If you refuse to accept facts in life, it would be difficult to live,

Dear, sometimes you must forget, sometimes you must forgive!
Learn to accept the facts; you must grow up,
Things will change for better, never give up!
Remember, there's always the next time, there's always tomorrow,
And tomorrow may be even brighter than today!
In the abyss of darkness, there's always a ray of hope,
The morrow will be yours, cheer up!"

I kept mum; I had nothing else to say,
I was lost; she brought me back on my way!
I woke up and found a rose on my pillow,
I held it in my hand, and I was never the same!

Now when my silly heart grumbles, "Why me?",
I pacify, "Let it be, let it be!"
I believe, one day I'll make it,
Someday, all my dreams might just come true!
Maybe, all my sorrows will not get over,
But I promise, I'll be smiling, now and forever.
So for the time being, if it's me,
I'll say, "Let it be, let it be!"

" I Can Still Taste You On My Lips.................."

I Can Still Taste You On My Lips.......
(Mon, August 13, 2007 - 7:49 AM)

I can still taste you on my lips
and your scent still fills the air
my chest warm by your gentle breath
even though you are so far away

I see you in my restless dreams
You gently soothe away the pain
I hear you softly call out be mine
and whisper that we'll meet again

so long we shared a perfect love
this is not the way for it to end
let's spend our lives as lovers do
not just as distant proper friends

I long for you, and spend my days
I make my plans and try to start anew
in loving memories, of yesterday
to be together, just me and you

" Heartspeak..................."

Heartspeak ...........
(Mon, August 13, 2007 - 8:11 AM)

Intensity is the fire that burns
From the wood of unspoken words and feelings
Arising in the heart
Powered by the inability
Of human language to describe them

I dare not say what I feel in my heart
For words can only spoil it
I dare not look at you too long
For my eyes will spell each word out loud

Deep in your eyes I have written those words
And now your heart wonders -
Unheard, your mind is held to my heart
Words, I fear will drive you away

Why must the heart find voice through words
Why must I give a language to the unspeakable

Words, I fear will drive you away
While unspoken, you are held by my heart

" Storm Within......................"

Storm Within...........
(Tue, August 14, 2007 - 9:26 AM )

Lightning flashes
Illuminating our room
I feel the electricity in the air
And in the bed that we share

Like a tiger stalking it’s prey,
You slowly move above me
Sparks between us ignite
As our bodies press tight

A brush of our lips
Teases my senses
Our hands begin to explore
Like so many times before

Skin on skin
Pure passion
Fingers entwine
Our bodies align

Breathing becomes erratic
Eruptions build within
Unadulterated pleasure
Over and over again

Thunder echoes through the darkness
Masking erotic moans and cries
We collapse in each other’s arms
While the waves begin to subside

As I look into your eyes
I begin to realize
You are my storm within
The driving force of my desire & affection

" Deep Within................."

Deep Within..............
( Wed, August 15, 2007 - 9:29 PM)

His plans and dreams are unfulfilled,
he says I’m not what he needs.
He feels the need to be on his way

He said he’ll give “us” one more try
and acts like things are fine
But I know down deep within my heart
he’s only marking time.

He has to know that I’m aware
he doesn’t plan to stay
Action speak louder than words
so he doesn’t have to say

I try not to let him see the tears,
the pain and the despair.
I try to stay upbeat and cheerful
and act like he still cares.

I show him love and affection,
and steal kisses when I can.
But sometimes his cool demeanor
is more than I can stand.

I listen to his comments closely
looking for any sign or clue
For I want to be prepared the day
he finally says we’re through

Until that day, I’ll try not to dwell
on all my pain and fears
I’ll show him all the love and support
and he’ll not see any tears.

I hope one day he’ll look back
with warm thoughts and a smile,
for the total and unconditional love
that I gave him for a while.

" The Feeling Of Love...................."

The Feeling of Love .......
(Sun, August 19, 2007 - 6:49 AM)

Love is just not a saying; it’s a feeling felt deep within
Love is just not an expression; it’s a lifetime experience
Love is just not a happening; it’s a miracle
Love is just not a word; it’s a life…

Love and Me…. Are so much alike

I live with the beat of my heart, and every beat carries love
I experience the emotion and it’s the expression of love
I happen to view miracles and miracles happen with love
I live for love and life gets it’s meaning with true love

" Let My Soul Smile.................."

Let My Soul Smile..................
(Mon, August 20, 2007 - 9:09 PM)

"Let my soul smile through my heart
and my heart smile through my eyes,
that I may scatter rich smiles in sad hearts."

"Many people excuse their own faults
but judge other persons harshly.
We should reverse this attitude
by excusing others' shortcomings and by harshly examining our own."

"There is a magnet in your heart that will attract true friends.
That magnet is unselfishness, thinking of others first.
When you learn to live for others, they will live for you."

" Yaa Rabb....................."

Yaa Rabb..........
(Tue, August 21, 2007 - 1:25 AM )

Yaa Rabb... Another Night is passing away,
Another Day is rising --
Tell me that I have spent the Night well so I can be at peace,
Or that I have wasted it,
so I can mourn for what is lost.
I swear that ever since the first day You brought me back to life,
The day You became my Friend,
I have not slept --
And even if You drive me from your door,
I swear again that we will never be separated.
Because You are alive in my heart.

" My Deep Soul...................."

My Deep Soul.............
(Wed, August 22, 2007 - 7:56 PM)

Many questions in my head,
As I wake up from my bed,
I feel so, so alone,
Trapped in the heart of my own.

Everything seems so blur,
Am I okay? I’m not sure,
I feel like being stabbed into my soul,
Three knives stabbing, my poor, poor soul.

Million of secrets I must keep,
Bury in my body, oh so deep,
No one will ever understand me,
No one will ever save me.

My life is filled with misery,
Everything makes me feel so angry,
I feel hatred burning my brain,
And never before, I feel so pain.

I live in tears,
I live in fears,
Lock myself in my little room,
Hoping things will be better soon.

" One Heart ..........................."

One Heart ............
(Sat, August 25, 2007 - 11:30 AM )

was it the wind
that whispered your name
or did you call to me
from the depths of my soul?

as the wind descends from the heavens
and cools me with its gentle touch
your love surrounds me
flows through me
having no end
no seam between your heart and mine
we are one heart
and one soul

a feeling of the greatest love
encircles us both

no matter how far apart we are
this longing burns inside of me
for your arms to encircle me
and your lips gently upon my lips
then I am complete

so hold me my love
and never let me go
even if tonight
it is only in your dreams
because I am holding you close to me
as I drift into a dream
of you my love

" Deep Love...................."

Deep love...............
(Mon, August 27, 2007 - 12:59 AM)

I never really knew what it felt like to love someone
Or the emptiness you feel when this process has begun
How nothing seems more important than you and i

How being away from you creates tears in my eyes
I miss seeing your eyes and feeling your touch
I miss seeing the words come from your mouth, "I love you so much"

At night I wish you were here with me
So I begin to hear my heart beat rythmically
I'm up all night like I'm waiting for you
Want to sit on your lap
Straddle you
Let you know you're my king

And that we're together in my dreams
I never thought I could feel this way

I guess I close my eyes ......
so we can be together today .......

" Pieces of Me..............."

Pieces Of Me.............
(Mon, August 27, 2007 - 1:21 AM )

when you left the other day..
you took a piece of me away..
now...I understand how lonely the sky must be..
when the stars disappear

and how happy the earth is..
when venus is near

how the plant dies..without her roots
and why farmers need sunlight to grow their fruit

for when you are away a day seems like a week
and only of you...
does my mouth allow me to speak..

sea without oceans..
rain would not exist..

and without you
my soul will remain hollow..
until I hear your voice and feel your tender kiss

" The Journey......................."

(Wed, August 29, 2007 - 9:00 AM)

sometimes its easier to run from what your scared of
sometimes its easier to confront your fears
sometimes its easier to dry your tears
sometimes its easier to hide them for years
sometimes its easier to break down and cry
sometimes its easier not knowing why
sometimes its easier if you have someone for leaning
sometimes its easier knowing that
every lesson in life has somekind of meaning........

The journey we make in life is long and hard.
This journey which has its crossroads. . . when we get to them.
we have to decide on which road to take,
what path to make and what's down that road.

This journey that we must make has many obstacles,
many detours, many signs.
We see the signs, but never heed its warnings,
we see the detours in life, but seem
to stray the other way.

Life is rough and so is this journey that we're making.
This journey we make has its trail of tears and its path
of happiness................

the two never meeting.
When finally, we choose our path,
we must follow it to the end,
to the end of its road, which is our destiny in
That's when life begins..............

" Just For You....................."

Just For You..................
(Wed, August 29, 2007 - 9:29 AM)

I wished the sun to shine on you
And sparkle gently in your eyes;
I've asked its rays to warm you and send
Rose-colored sunsets to paint your skies.
I've asked the rainbow to gleam brilliantly

Through droplets of heavenly rain,
To color your world artistically
Through your window pane.
I've make a request to the wind
To softly dance and sway the trees;
And blow sweet aromatic scents
Of flower gardens through its breeze.
May lacy honeysuckle bloom
Wildly about your cottage door,
That, as you wander to and fro,
Butterflies and hummingbirds soar.

Oh, that songbirds fly merrily and
Put music in your days;
And nightfall twinkles rhythmically
As the jeweled starlit lullaby plays.
In all your dreams may your spirit ascend
To a high place of perfect rest;
And, may it be that all your days
Are full and Godly blessed.

" Together.............."

(Wed, August 29, 2007 - 9:52 AM )

May I rest my troubled mind upon you?
And confide in you
My purpose for life?

May we seek, together,
A warmth fit to serve
To serve the one true God

Let us dance together
On this sun like earth
But never burned or consumed

May our hot days be cold
And our cold days, hot
Under a shade we live in harmony

Together we gain
And together we share
Unbound knowledge and truth

May we hold our hearts
Till death do us part
And on the otherside, we wait

If we can fight together, we must strive together
If we can play together, we must pray together
If we can plan together, we must stand together
If we can cry together, we must try together

We must strive together, if we can fight together
We must pray together, if we can play together
We must stand together, if we can plan together
We must try together, if we can cry together

The future of man is built on a plan
Of working together whenever we can
So "if" must stand so tall
And "must" alone, cannot fall
For together, forever we bring
The best, the good of it all